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Death and Grieving Coping with loss is difficult at any age, but you are not alone during this difficult time. Reach out to other users in this forum.

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Oh my Jade... - April 16th 2009, 07:43 AM

Jade. My baby cousin.
April 2nd, 2009.
Sweetie pie,
Why'd you do it?
I told you I would be there for you.
I said I was on your side.
I'm sorry I had to tell.
I was worried about you.
Now I see that you were really hurting.
You said nothing.
The pain was hidden in your eyes.
I took your hand lightly when you cried.
When they found you that next morning.
Up in that tree.
I had no one to blame.
But myself.
Your funeral was hard, baby.
I spoke.
And I said,
"Jade, my baby, 12 years old.
I watched you fall apart.
I'm sorry I told.
You said you wanted to die.
You said you weren't worthy of this life.
I just listened.
You showed me your cuts.
I ran my hand over them.
I tried to be strong.
But the tears were there.
You said, Ateh, Don't Cry.
You said You'd be alright.
What happened on that last night?
This I'll never know.
My Baby Jade.
I'm sorry I told."
And as I walked down from the altar,
I felt your touch.
I saw your face.
And I fell apart.
The seams had ripped.
Right then and there.
"JADE!"
I cried.
"WHY?"
I yelled.
And screamed.
I want you back.
"Lord!
Was this part of your plan?
Tell me Lord.
I want one more minute, Jesus.
Please."
And I pray.
Every night.
Jade.
How I wish you hadn't done it.
I love you.
I will see you up there.
"My Jesus Christ,
Please keep Jade safe."


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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 16th 2009, 09:44 AM

Touching =\
Really sad though.
Try be strong (Y)
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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 16th 2009, 04:43 PM

Oh Amelia, I am so sorry to hear this happened to your cousin. *hug* I am sorry that I don't know what more I can say except that we'll be here if at any time you need to talk . Remember to keep taking things one day at a time and hang in there. Take care of yourself. xxx
   
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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 16th 2009, 05:07 PM

It's so tragic to hear of such events happening at such young ages.
I'm so sorry Amelia.
You have to be strong now, for her.
PM me if you ever need to talk. I'd be happy to help as much I can.
Keep holding on. Everyday will get easier.
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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 16th 2009, 09:20 PM

Amelia,

I usually do not reply to threads like this. I lack words to say to someone who is grieving. I've lost friends, people that I care about and it's hard. I want to tell you that I'm sorry for your loss, but sorry just doesn't cover it. I also want to say that time will ease your pain, but I can't predict that. I certainly hope it will. You and your family are in my thoughts and I hope that things get better for you. You need to remember the good times that you had with your cousin.


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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 17th 2009, 06:53 AM

Thank you all so much.
I am still missing her,
but
your kind words have helped so much.
Thank you again.


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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 17th 2009, 06:09 PM

Hey Amelia,

Your words are very touching. It is obvious that you loved her a lot. It isn't your fault. It isn't your fault. It isn't your fault. It isn't your fault! Forgive yourself. As much as we would like to sometimes, we cannot control another person's actions. What they do is their choice. She didn't do that to herself because of anything you did or said... it just doesn't work like that. It takes a lifetime of hurt to make a person do that. I am sure you weren't the one who caused her all that hurt. If anything it sounds to me like you were there for her when she needed someone most. Some people don't want to be saved. You can't force help upon someone. You can't always make someone see reason. I'm finding it hard to type these words to you because... because I know how you feel. If its okay I am going to share a little something with you, I still blame myself for my father's suicide. I've gotten to the point where I've realized that the self loathing and the misplaced blame will get you no where. Working towards forgiveness is hard but will you at least try it? You owe that much to yourself. Talking about things can help in some cases. If you ever want to talk I am here for you. Take care of yourself and give yourself a chance. I'll repeat it one last time: you are not to blame and it isn't your fault.


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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 17th 2009, 06:19 PM

amelia, this is so touching
im nearly crying
you have been so amazingly brave and strong
please know that it is not your fault
if you ever need to talk i am always here
xoxox



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Re: Oh my Jade... - April 20th 2009, 09:41 AM

i begin to cry when i realise people do care. you cared for you cousin you are so strong and you have courage that i wish i had.
suicide kills more then one persons heart.
keep up the fighting spirit you can beat this!!
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Re: Oh my Jade... - May 3rd 2009, 10:25 PM

Amen. I'm sorry for your loss. Be strong...
   
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Re: Oh my Jade... - May 10th 2009, 09:33 AM

I know sorry doesn't even begin to cover it, but just know that everyone here is thinking of you and we're all here to talk to *hug*


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