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almost a month.. - June 19th 2009, 03:22 AM

It's already been almost a month, and I still can't believe what happened. It's still so unreal, when I go back to visit next week it'll be a giant slap in the face, it'll be the first time since I've moved that I won't run into him when I visit. No more secretly searching for him out of the corner of my eye everywhere I go, wishing in the back of my mind to see him. I'll still have that wish, but I know it won't happen. The number my friends pranked him on so many times is still in my phone. Every note about him me and my friend wrote freshman year still sit in my safe under my bed. All those memories of the times I hated him, and at the same time liked him like no other guy still flood my mind. I think I truly loved him. I'm just as obsessed with his death as I was with him, I've looked up every article I can possibly find and it's still not enough, not enough to make it real.

Before when I saw a memorial on the side of the road, I barely noticed. Now I feel for the people that lost that person, and am reminded of my own loss, the loss of my friends and old town. My heart aches when I see them. I understand the pain.

Things feel empty now, even though I haven't seen him since April, and haven't spoken to him since last year

"We all have battle scars, Finn. Suck it up and build a brace for yours."
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Re: almost a month.. - June 19th 2009, 03:49 AM

Eye opening, isn't it?

There's nothing wrong with 'obsessing' over it, though it takes you to a pretty dark place. Articles can be helpful, and they give you someone else's point of view (I don't think that means you're obsessed).

To be honest, the emptiness is never really filled. It's always there in the back of your mind, but it fades somewhat with time. I don't know how close you were to this person, or any of the details, but I know how it feels.

That's all I'm going to say here, but if you'd like someone to relate to, don't hesitate to PM me.

- Jessica.

Baby, there's no gettin' over you.

Take my heart as you head for the door;
I won't be needing it anymore.

Because when it comes to balls, bigger is better.

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