He's Dead But I Still See Him

[Poisonous]

Im bisexual and ive been that way for nearly 4 yrs and im 14 now, i met this guy called will and we quickly became best friends, doing everything together, i realised about 6 months after we met that i was falling in love with him and i soon asked him if he was gay, he told me he was bi and had he'd fallen for me about the same time , i fgell for him, we started dating and were going out for about 3 yrs when his dad decided to move to america for a yr, they moved to los angelos and after both of us feeling empty we decided to break up until they moved back, on january 11th he was killed in either a hit and run or a drive by shooting. i became depressed and tried suicide until after counselling i slowly got over him, i still love him with all my heart and recently i've started seeing him everywhere i go, i might walk past a gang of my year boys at school and he would be one of them, winking at me, i would catch a glance at a mirror and see his reflection instead of mine. Its driving me crazy, can someone please help me understand what and why its happening?

[Claire]

Its still really soon so he will be in your mind all the time, and you will see him in familiar places, thats completely normal. When my Mum died I would hear her downstairs still and pick up the phone to call her when I saw something that reminded me of her. It slowly fades though, and thats both good and bad. Its bad because you feel guilty for not thinking of them as much, but its good because it lets you get on with your own life and its healthy.

I'd give yourself at least another few months to see if it gradually gets better, but if it carries on, or if your really bothered by it and its affecting you majorly, then talk to a doctor. They can help, either with pills or with counciling. Bereavement councilors are trained to deal with this and see it everyday, they can help you. Your definitely not alone x