my great grandpa death

[cdc600900]

i was 10 yrs old when my great grandpa die. its been 10 almost 11 years sent he die and i still cant get my mind off of him. i miss him soo much its not funny. everytime someone tlks about him, or it gets around my b-day or christmas, its just hurt and i dont want to celbrate these holidays b/c it hurts and i cant tlk about this with any of my family or friends (being i dont have friends) and i really cant tlk to bf about this i dont know what to do and how to get rare i cant celbrate the holiday and have fun on them at least.

[Jacksonian]

You need to talk to someone about this, you cannot keep it bottled up on the inside. Surely there has to be someone in your family you can talk to about this ??

[Heartlines.]

I am so so sorry for your loss.

I think you should get counseling, for reason as you shouldn't bottle things up. That isn't healthy, and will only get worse over time. If you aren't comfortable with the idea of a counselor, do you have anyone in your life that you can turn to for support? Friends? Family members? Teachers? Even venting to someone could help. You need someone to listen to you, that can sympathize with your pain. Someone to be a friend. I think that would help a lot, actually.

Take care,
Lyndsee