I'm not always strong....

[Jaden89]

So, I'm not feeling the greatest today, in fact, I feel sick, I can't stop crying....My grandmother passed away this morning at 5:30 am. She was my step grandmother and while I didn't know her really well she was a sweet woman and I'm sad to see her go. She had a lot of health issues and so the heart surgery that she needed wasn't able to be done. I'm also mad at the same time, mad at her husband and her son (not my step dad) for not being there for her. They barely saw her and were'nt there for her....my step dad spent the whole night with her as did my mom until she passed this morning....I just....I dunno I feel ick...

[Katrina]

Hey Malissa,

Regardless of whether or not you were close to her, I think that the death of anyone who has made an impact on our life can be difficult. Don't feel as though you have to limit yourself, time wise or otherwise, as you go through this process of grieving for your grandmother. (: Sometimes, it can be hard for us to know the extent of the relationship of two other people (or in this case three other people) or why those relationships are the way they are when we don't know fully what may have been going on behind the scenes. Hopefully, she was able to have a fulfilling relationship with her husband and children...and if not, hopefully she found fulfillment in other relationships - with her friends, neighbors, grandchildren even. I am glad, though, that your mom and stepfather were able to be there for her through the night.

Hang in there. I use to think strength was only found in always being independent and doing things oneself, but I think there is also notable strength in knowing when its time to throw the red "help me out!" flags up and in asking for help. And in that regard, Malissa, I would say that you are very, very strong. Keep me posted on how you're doing. (: