My sister that cancer stole.

[The_Princess]

In December 2009, just before the new year, I lost a cousin of mine. She was more like a sister because of the special love that we shared. She died less than a month before she would turn 17. We lost her to cancer. In the first few months after she died, I cried all the time and constantly posted on her page that I wanted to die in her place. After about 6 months of depressing status updates, and having my family completely worried about me, I got better. The pain didn't get easier to deal with. But I realized that I got strong enough to carry it around with me without breaking down and crying. It's been a year and a couple months, and the pain is still there. I know it will never go away. When ever people talk about her, it makes me wanna cry because I know I will never be able to see her again.

[Reverie.]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, cancer is a horrible disease, i myself have lost three family members to it. It's nice that you and her shared love like this, you were bothe lucky people to have each other. just be happy that you got the time with her, she would have wanted that.
being unhappy is not unusual. death is something we will all experience in time, and since its natural it is inevitable. it's okay for you to miss her and wish she was there with you, but you have the memories that can make you smile even now.
if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.
Much love and take care x

[Berries and Cream]

Hey, I'm sorry that you had to go through this. Everyone knows it's totally not easy to experience a death of a loved one. As this happens, we naturally mourn, but we also celebrate that a life was once lived or a special love onced shared. I'm sure your cousin had a full and happy life I'm also sure she experienced love, joy, peace, etc. as we all do at some point However, it's important to realize that we all must move on one point in life. With time, we can all slowly heal and mend our wounds. Pain is never easy to deal with, but you pointed out that you realized you are getting stronger after she passed away. Stay strong and you will pull through PM me if you want to talk! I'll pray for you.

[mIssIng:nO]

The memories she left was her gift to you and its the best possible thing you could receive from someone. Not money, not material goods. But the times that you spent will be forever imprinted in your memory banks, something that can never be lost or taken away, even if she was.

Stay strong, and cherish the time you spent with her, because the future hasn't come yet, and no time will ever take the pain away, but it can also never take her influence on your life away.

[WillO'Wisp]

I'm so sorry for your loss.
I understand how cancer is the most horrible thing. I hate it too. I go through worrying everyday wondering if the cancer my uncle has is severe or mild, and I can't imagine losing someone so close to me to cancer. I believe and hope one day they'll find a cure for it.
Your cousin is never completely gone and nobody we lose is gone. I believe bits of them live on in us, and we can feel them walking beside us in spirit. In spirit they are watching over us, and when we die, we will be re-united with them on the other side. I think there has to be something after this life otherwise all of this would have had to be pointless.
I hope I could be of help. If you need a friend to talk to message me anytime.