Non-PG13 (Strong Language): I miss Daddy.

[askingcolie]

When I was twelve, I lost my father. I am fifteen now. And tonight I have been feeling a great deal of depression towards losing my dad. My dad. Was my hero. He taught me how to swim, how to kick a soccer ball, talked to me about everything, introduced me to so many great things. He was the best dad anyone could ask for. We shared everything from candy to Girl Scout Cookie selling. Three years later, I ahve lost all the innocence I had when I still had him. He was still Daddy and I was Daddy's Little Girl. I want to talk to him. I want to ask him questions. I can't stand the sickening feeling that I wasn't meant to lose him so early and that he still had so many things left to teach me. I don't ever feel as great a pain as I do when I miss my dad and nothing seems to be getting easier, just farther apart. I feel like this pain will never go away.
I need my dad to threaten the boys I date with a shotgun and buy me ice cream when they hurt me. I need my dad to play our favorite songs and tell me it'll be okay. I need my dad to be there for me when I was raped. And now that I may be preagnant with the rapist's baby, I don't think I can life without him.
My father was murdered. He was ripped from me. If I find the person who did that to me and my father. I will fucking kill him.
This really wasn't anything to have answered. Just a lot of grief to let out.

[Quirinus]

I'm so sorry for your loss, you seemed very close to your father, i know how hard it is to lose someone close to you, but just remember when you're feel sad, they are always going to watch over you, and be in your heart, you may not be able to feel/see/hear them but they can hear you, see you.. And maybe your father will find a way to get the people back for what they do, you never know what happens after death..

[jenpiglet17]

I'm sorry I know what it's like to lose a father... Mine passed away also, but when I was just in 3rd grade. I was closer with him than i was my mother. If you ever need someone to vent to, I'm always here and I'll always listen!

[Peyton]

Im sorry to hear this i know what its like to lose a dad mine died 5 years ago im always here if you need to talk <3

[jelli1224]

I'm sorry about the loss of your Dad. You both sounded really close. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. You can PM or VM me anytime.

Angelica

[bethhhjo]

I'm so sorry about your Dad :'/
Just wanted to say, that what you're going through, is perfectly normal.
Try and live your life now, as your Dad would've wanted you to?
I'm always here if you need to talk! beth.jo@hotmail.co.uk
xxxxxxxxxxx

[Believe.]

i'm sorry, it must hurt a lot. i haven't lost anyone so i can only imagine. if i did, i would just hold on to the good memories, like what he tought you and what it was like having him around. it's good that you miss him becasue even though he's gone your love still remains. try to remember that he's in a good place, ok? if you're religous, he's in heaven. if you're not, he's at rest. ok? i hope you feel better, and i hope this helped...

[snoogums]

i am so sorry about your dad my uncle died 2 years ago and he lived with us for 5 years of my life so i was very close to him like a father my real dad is an ass and no longer a part of my life. As long as you have good memories of him he is never truly dead. <3

[Ali Baba]

Sorry to hear that. Maybe you should try writing letters to him, it really helped me cope. It allowed me to release some of the emotions I had been bottling up for so long. Also don't be afraid to talk about him, he was your hero and he should be acknowledged. I've gotten to a place where I can think or talk about my dad and smile afterwards, just grateful to have the 15 years I did have with him. You'll get to that place too, but you have to let yourself move on first. That doesn't mean forgetting about him, but remembering him in a positive light and letting go of the anger and the need you have for revenge. It will only make you unhealthy. Stay strong! You can do it.

[EndureEmo]

i feel like this right now, my dad died just before my 11th birthday. i never got to see him much coz he lived with his mum and dad coz they were very ill, i still remember waking up cryying coz i miss him so much. and tonight i just feel so sick just thinking about it.

talk to me when ever. <3