MY DAD . :(

[EndureEmo]

ohkay, well tomorrow on the 2nd of may. it will be four years since my dad passed away. i don't feel good at all, in the past me and my dad haven't been so close for he and my mother used to always fight. and my sisters and i would always stay with mum. But i conected with my dad alot, i am so much a like him. and i feel way better around his family as on my mothers side.
i feel really bad atm, because i never really got the talk to him or get to know him as much at most people get to know there dads. he showed me some things like how to crack a whip, and how to ride a bike and things like that, but he was always so far away.
and i had some happy feelings when he died, like i was glad he was gone. but now i just feel really depressed and sad and omg, so many emotions im confusing my self.
and my boyfriend has no idea my dad has died, and i know ill be even worse tomorrow, and i will see him at school, ehh, i don't know how to tell people .. ;s

[Troubled_Heart]

just be honest with people about it, they'll be able to support you and help you through this. Focus on the good things about your Dad and forget about the bad stuff... celebrate the fact that he was alive, instead of the sadness of his death.

[Noah Zomby]

Like Melissa said, just be honest and tell people. Telling people about things and getting your emotions off your chest is a very good way to help with your sadness. If they are good people, they will put their arm around you, talk to you, or just so much as to say "I'm sorry for your loss." I'm going through kind of a rough time right now, and I told one of my friends today. We're not all that close and we joke around a lot. Like we pretend we don't like each other much (in a way) and also we don't talk much. I told her what I was going through and she said stuff like "Awww" and "I'm sorry" and "It must be really hard." And she also was like rubbing and patting my back some, plus a few times she pulled me in and put her head on my shoulder. It really made me feel good. That someone who I wasn't close to barely at all was comforting me. And when I was leaving I thanked her for what she did and she said "Anytime."

So talk to someone and just be honest about it, they'll help you feel better, by quite a bit. And if he's good, then your boyfriend especially.

And also like Melissa said, think about all the good times the two if you have shared together and celebrate his living, rather than grief over his death.

If you want, my inbox is always open and I'm on almost all the time.

[Mel14]

Dealing with a parent dying at a young age is SO emotionally confusing. My dad died around this time when i was about 13. I felt nothing at all for the first year. Then it slowly began to hit me....I was depressed, felt alone and didn't want to do anything.
Everyone is different...for me, I HAD to be with friends or I just lost it.
Just try doing what feels best. being alone, with family or with friends. Try talking to your boyfriend. You'll be surprised how much he might care

Best wishes to you!