My boyfriend died

[chanelxo]

My boyfriend passed away on march 18th of this year,everyday is only getting worse.He was my rock and now it seems everything i do only makes me feel worse.I got a new dog and that is stressing me out more,i need to find a job and i live in a stressful house with my fam.I hate this so much,sometimes i think of ways to end my life.I look up the best ways and i feel like one day i'm gonna do it.I can't deal with this world anymore its against me so much.Why do i have to deal with this all?

[Kira-Kira]

i totally get how this feels i had my ex bf commit suicide on me and my ex gf i think what did i do wrong but you have to hang in there for your bf he loves you and wouldnt want you to kill yourself it may seem inpossible but its not you have to be strong and hang in there if you ever need to talk you can always pm me im always here

[xxpaigiexx]

Hey there,

Firstly, I am very sorry to hear about your loss.
I know right now you must be struggling and it's going to be like this for a while, but gradually things are going to become easier. Not that you will ever get over the loss of your boyfriend and no one would ever expect you to, but gradually you're going to come to terms with the loss of your boyfriend.

Speak to the people around you about the way you're feeling. Build up a support system and at times when you're feeling at your worst, speak to them and just have people there to listen to how you feel.
I'm sure your boyfriend would hate you feeling like this and would want you to confide in the people around you.
I've never lost a boyfriend or anything, but I have experienced the loss of a close one and I would be lying if I said it all gets better, because in all honesty I don't think it does but eventually you learn to accept, and it takes time but what it also takes is having a good support system around you, people you can trust and turn to.

I'm always here if you need someone to talk to.

Keep strong
All my love
Paige

[mbl1]

You're so young, it's normal to feel like things might never get better but they do. You will believe me when it happens, it always gets better. It's just hard to believe when it's the first time it happens.

[SamMarie]

Condolences to your loss. Your boyfriend will always be with your heart and it's okay to dwell and cry about this. You are doing the right things by venting out. Go out and meet new people. Love never dies, sweetie. You will realize that you are a strong woman if you believe it. Your boyfriend would want you to be happy and continue on the road of happiness. Do that for him and yourself. <3 (: If you need to talk to still, I'm here for you.

[Ancora Imparo]

Hey there,

I'm really sorry to hear about your loss and I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling with things right now but hopefully you'll be able to get some good advice from the members here and find comfort in their words.

I know that sometimes when people lose people they always feel as if they had so much that they wish they could have said to that person before they lost them so perhaps you could write your boyfriend a letter? Write everything you feel, get everything off your chest and then perhaps leave it on his grave or something similar. I know it sounds like a silly idea but sometimes people are in need of closure and to say all the things that they wish they could have said before. I like to believe that nobody ever really dies because although you may not be able to physically see your boyfriend anymore, for as long as you hold memories of him, have pictures of him and all of that good stuff then he'll live on forever and he'll always be with you.

I think that while you're going through this difficult time you need to try and take baby steps rather than juggle all these stressful things at once because it'll only continue to grind you down and make you feel even worse.

I understand that things seem difficult right now and the pain feels like it will never go away but everybody grieves differently and sometimes it can take time before things start to get better but trust me, they do get better so please try to hold on in there. We're always here for you and if you ever need somebody to talk to then I'm always more than happy to talk whenever so feel free to PM or VM me at any time. I really hope that I've been able to help you in one way or another.

Keep your chin up!

[Veronica1986]

OMG I'm so sorry! My advice is to live your life in honor of him. He is now youre angel, and you shouldn't dissappoint him. Just keep the faith, and remember, he'll love you always, but that doesn't mean you should waste your life just on him, there are other notes in the scale!

[BethanyAnn]

I know this is devastating first hand... I want say first that you have amazing strength to even post something like this. And I am very sorry, I'm sure you don't want to hear that and I know it won't solve your problems.

My best friend, since I was 7 passed away a year and a half ago, right before we where suppose to start high school together. I no longer had anything in me, no want, no strive, no nothing, I was blank, couldn't cope, had to dope up on medication just to get to sleep at night, couldn't talk, refused to eat. I stayed in my room and cried for months. I wanted to end my life, nothing seemed stable. But as time went on and I realized the world won't stop for you, and you have to keep moving. It is hard, but then again just imagine what your boyfriend would want for you, he wouldn't want you to take your own life, he wouldn't want you to cry, he wants you to be happy. He is looking down on you, and you will ALWAYS have a place for him in your heart ALWAYS. Things do become easier, but you do hit bumps, you will compare everyone to him. I did the same and you will think nothing can replace him, and this will take awhile. It took me a year to come to terms with myself, and when you make terms with yourself, you can talk about it a lot easier, and move on slowly but surely. Time is the healer, but stopping the world won't work. This is hard and I can go on for days, and I really hope things get better... If you need anything, my e-mail is on my profile..... Hang in there, and in the end you will be stronger than you ever thought you could, and you will realize that you can conquer anything if you can conquer this