Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Its not fair, why leave me here?

[Flame]

My older brother was killed in a car accident, he was my other half, my support system, my best friend, I feel so alone now he’s gone. He dropped out of school just to make sure I have a roof over my head when my parents kicked us out. He is and always will be my hero, but now he’s gone and I have to go back to my parents, who just tell me to get over it and grow up. When I last mentioned it my dad hit me saying its my fault he’s dead, I should have been dead not him, I know this already, but he won’t fucking stop telling me. My brother was so strong and would always be there, he would be there for me to tell him about my problems, he would be there to help me if I was bullied, but he’s gone and everythings fucking up. My parents hate me, my brothers fucking friends hate me, they were like my brothers, but now they hate me to. I don’t know what to do, I just want my fucking brother back L

[Flame]

My brother was everything to me and now he's gone. I feel so alone and like I can't go on...

[Aletheia*]

Hey Flame,

I'm so sorry to hear about your older brother. A loss is a loss, no matter who or what it is. This is going to be a difficult time for you, but don't ever think that it was you who should have died in that car accident. What happened to him is not your fault. Sometimes, things work in mysterious ways. Just because he is gone in a physical sense doesn't mean that he isn't living on. He's living on through you, and through his friends. Who cares if they hate you? They're most likely just grieving his death as well as you are. Do you have any friends you can stay with while your parents get over this difficult time? They'll help you get back on track!

[Sea Monkey]

Flame,
I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your older brother, it must be very hard to deal with. What happened to your brother is not your fault, so please don't ever think it. Your father seems as though he is very upset about your brother, and by taking it out on somebody else is a way of him coping with his feelings. He'll come round soon, it is often quite shocking for parents to take in something like this as it is very upsetting for them too. I'd suggest staying with somebody else while your parents are going through this rough time; maybe somebody who you feel will lift your spirits up a bit.

[Concrete Angel]

I can say I know exactly how you feel. I was a year older to you when I lost my brother. He was the only one who supported me, through my life. He was the shining star that guided me. He was 5 years older to me. He died trying to save me, in an accident.
It was the hardest thing that I had to face, Flame. And it's even the hardest thing for me to talk about. But what's important was that you had him in your life, even if it was for not a very long time. And no matter what, you've made many a memory together. Cherish those memories. He may not be physically present. But he will live forever and ever. Through your love, in your heart. He will. I know, because I can still hear my Mikey whisper in my ear whenever I need his guidance.
It's hard. It's very hard. I spent a year and a half crying because of what happened. I blamed myself over and over for his death and so did my family. He was my cousin. But he was like my very own brother. Let your parents say what they want, but they are in shock. They will come to realize the effect it's having on you. you need to give them time too.
It also made me realize that if he were alive, and he was here with me, he wouldn't want me to live like this. He wouldn't want me to be upset all the time. He wouldn't want me to lead such a life. He gave his life for me. I should make that sacrifice worth it. I need to live the way he wanted me to live. Happy. And that's what you need to remember about your brother too.
He's at peace. He's looking down on you. And he loves you.

If you need to talk, I'm here.

[FlyingTrue]

I think you should contact the police or child protective services about all of this. The fact that they kicked both of you out in the first place and formed this whole situation is illegal, and your parents have no right to hit you and emotionally abuse you in this way. You have my deepest condolences, and we are here for you.

[Veronica1986]

I'm so sorry <3
Your dad is in shock, eventually he will be normal. Until then, find another relative to stay with

[B.J.]

I know how it feels to loose a brother, my brothers was just like that. You will get through it hun, you just need to stay strong, as for your father I would say he is just in shock, try talking to him tell him what you are hurting over this as well, if that doesn't work I would say go and live with a relative for awhile.