Triggering: My nana..

[Reflections]

Heey.. I haven't been on in.. Well.. I don't even know...

My nana isn't dead.. Yet. D=

She's dying, I know it, mom knows it, everyone seems to know it, I even think she knows it. But I don't want to admit it..

Her health is just getting worse and worse.. She's to sick to go to the hospital because she passes out and everything.

I hate this.. She also keeps talking about how her life is horrible since we moved away and everything. I wish it were as easy to move back, but we're 3 provinces away, with not even enough money to put food on the table..
I know I sound like a b!tch saying this, but I feel like she keeps guilting me, because I'm the only one who will listen. I love her so much, and I don't want her to die, but she isn't doing anything for her health, and ugh.. I don't know...

I jusdt don't know how I'm gonna be able to cope if she dies, and I don't even know if she's gonna be around much longer which kills. Knowing I could wake up and find out bad news.. It's not nice.. this isn't just a breakdown or anything, I'm just legit scared..

I don't know why I posted this.. Just wanted to see if anything would help this feeling..

[Tigerlily.]

First of all I'm sorry to hear about all of this, even thinking about losing someone so close can be hard. Can she perhaps call for an ambulance to go to the hospital? In any case, losing someone or thinking about losing someone is hard but I as well as many other members on here know what it feels like and will try to help you through this. If you ever want to talk, or even just rant, you can PM me.

[Reverie.]

Hey there,

Death's horrible. It doesn't matter about the circumstances or anything it is horrible and it will be hard to deal with. It happens to us all and we're going to experience it. Unfortunatly you can't do anything about that other than surround yourself with people who can support you. When death strikes, you have to allow yourself to reach out to people who are going through the same or can help you out. Lean on them and let them help you as you help them.

Until it happens, spend as much time as you can with your nana. It will make you feel better in the long run as you'll have no regrets about not savouring the time you had with her in the first place. Let her know you love her and keep reminding her that. Just be there for her really. There's little else you can do.

PM me if you need to talk. I'll be happy to help you in any way I can. I wih you all the best and also all the best to your nana.

Take care,
Hollie.

[Casey.]

Hey Alice,

I know what it's like to live with a sick and dying grandparent. I was too young to understand death but you are not. Spend time with her, if you can and if it doesn't upset you too much. Yes, she's your nana but you need to take care of yourself too. Death isn't easy, it's so final. But it's also not scary. It's an end to the pain and suffering of those who are sick. It's finally being done with the illness.

Death causes a lot of emotions. Sadness, pain, depression. Anger, fear, happiness. Sometimes you go through all the emotions at one time, and it's confusing and scary. But it's life. It will be hard, I'm not going to lie. It's tough to get through the lose of a loved one but it's doable. Spend time with her now, while you can. You can get through this.

Take care of yourself and feel free to PM me.
Casey.