My grand father

[BeautifulGame]

Writing this is extremely difficult for me, I know I am just trying to avoid the subject, but I don’t think I can ever get better mentally if I don’t let it out. My grandpa passed away on June 18th , he was buried just yesterday. I couldn’t even go to the funeral cause its all the way in Africa. There is soo much in the back of my mind… but I just cant let it out… Im soo lost on what to do.

He went to india with my grandma, because she needed some medical attention with her stomach at first. Then things turned for the worse, she started kinda having early signs of dementia(my great grandma, her mom, had it too, she passed away less than three years ago only, it was terrible, I was there ). I started seriously losing it when I heard that, it completely messed me up… then my grandpa had a heart attack, thank god he was next too the hospital, otherwise they said he woulda died right there. I spoke to him after the attack, and little did I know that would be the last time , I was supposed to see Italy with him when I finish school :’(

He went through an open heart surgery and there was a big chance he would not have made it, and dispite the odds made it through. And when he did, I was quite happy. But he got an infection and his condition went up and down and up and down until this Saturday, when it was all over.

I didn’t get to spend enough time with him

This didnt make me feel any better :/

[Reverie.]

Hey there,

Oh wow, I'm so sorry this has happened. If I could make it all better I would. Losing someone is always going to be hard, really it is, and there's no easy way to cope with it and overcome the emotional pain it brings. Unfortunately it's a part of life that we all have to encounter at some point, and whether it be a death your prepared for and know is coming, or a shock death that is unexpected and tragic, it will always his you hard and upset you.

That being said, it's not a dead end from here on in. While I understand you've lost people you loved and cared about, and I understand how hard it is to come to terms with, you're not alone. Remember, all of your family have lost this significant person in their lives and are going through the same thing as you. While they may react differently (as everyone does, there is no one way to react to the death of a loved one), they are still going through a hard time like you. My advice is to talk to them and support each other in the grieving process. Doing this alone will only make it harder and a longer process to endure, so surround yourself with people you love and lean on them. It will help.

This post may seem obvious to do, but it's going to be hard to let people know how you're feeling. Remember, they wont be surprised at it. You've lost someone you love, as have they, so they wont judge you for this. Other than getting support, there's not much you can do. It's something you have to go through, and you can do it. It wont be easy, and there's no time limit for grieving, but if you're patient, and keep the people you need and love around you, it'll make it easier and less stressful. Take care of yourself, and PM me anytime if you want to talk.

Keep your chin up,
Hollie.

[BeautifulGame]

Right Right I understand what you are saying. I appreciate your post, that made me feel a bit better

And I apologize but I def can not talk to my family about this. I mean I have to be strong in front of them. agh i dont know. Lol i guess its the long road for me.

But thank you