Triggering (Grieving): Something i wish you could read.

[.Heartfelt.Guardian.]

I wish you could see me now, I know I would give anything, to be able to see you again now. I’d write you a hundred letters, if I could just get them to you, but I know its impossible. Everyday without you, it becomes a little bit easier. I know you watch down on me, with those beautiful eyes of yours, Everyday without you, I know it will get better. I know I’ll cry less, and try harder. Everyday I smile a little bit more, knowing you’re watching my every step in the world. Now I’m at your grave trying to figure things out. With questions I wish I asked you back then, when I had the chance, now its too late, you are already gone, and I just wish you could be back with me. I hope I grew up to be what you hoped I would be. I’ve tried to beat It to not feel this way, its been 9 years, and I still miss you greatly, It will never be fair how you were taken from us too soon, with questions left unanswered, and things unsaid, Its weird how its been 9 years, and still no one has told me exactly what had happen to you. Though I was a little girl when you past, I understand why no one told me then, but now I am older, and no one told me, I didn’t get to say goodbye like some did to you before you past. I was too far away and was still in school. That day was hard for me to go through, I don’t remember much of that day, but I remember seeing you that week, we left your stuffed kitty right next to you, while I got the identical one. I miss you everyday, you’re with me by my heart in my locket on my neck and it never comes off. I hope you are watching me, and giving me guidance to where I should be. I visit you everyday, just to know that it is true, knowing it is not a very love dream. I wish there was a way I could talk to you and ask all the things I want to ask you back then, and now. It hurts everyday you not being here, and I know one day I will see you again.

Rest In Peace <3

[Reverie.]

Hey there,

I'm so sorry you lost this person so early on, and didn't get the chance to say goodbye or ask them the questions you wished you had had the chance to. Don't get yourself too down about it though, death happens and we can't do anything about that. Don't have regrets about things because it's something you can't go back and change. You were young, there's no point regretting not asking things then. Learn from it, spend time with those you have left and ask them the things you wish to know before you regret more later. It's not too late to make things better indirectly. I hope you're okay though, death is hard. Surround yourself with people who know how you feel. 9 years is a long time, but death is something that takes a while to sink in. It's okay to be upset and miss people. Talk about them, ask about them, celebrate them. They may be gone, but there's no reason why you can't still have a connection with them.

PM me anytime.
Hollie.