Will i ever get over it?

[missmolly]

My mum died on mothers day 2003. So 8 years ago. And i cant seem to move on. I am so sad and i miss her so so much. Im almost 17 and i still feel like the vunerable 8 year old i was when she died. All i want is my mum back. I feel so numb and so cold.. I have not been the same since she died. No one understands how hard it is to not have her. I would give anything just to talk to her once more.. I would give my life to talk to her... I feel so empty and like a huge chunk of me is missing! Will I ever feel ok again?

Even on happy occasions i feel sad because i wish my mum was there. I HATE my birthday now because she isnt there. Not a day goes by when i dont miss her. I imagine how different my life would be if she were stil alive..


Ahhh.... Im crying even writing this so i should stop...


Someone please help me.. I cant take this.. Im just a teenager who for once wants her mum...

[*Jen*]

Hey Molly,

I am so sorry to hear about your mum. I have lost my mum when I was young as well and do feel similar to you. It is so difficult and I often wonder whether it will ever get any easier but time is meant to be a healer. You won't ever get over it as such because after all its your mum and you will always miss her. But hopefully in time the pain will become less and you will be able to remember the good times you spent with your mum. It is more difficult when you are a teenager and all you want is your mum and you miss all the things about not having a mum. It kind of feels like a huge gap that nothing can fill. But hang onto those happy memories you spent with your mum and remind yourself of these when you feel sad.

Have you ever thought of having some counselling? It seems like you haven't really come to terms with losing your mum so it might help you to deal with some of the feelings you are having. You have to remember your mum would not want you to be sad. She would want you to be happy even though that might seem impossible at the moment without her. She may not be physically with you but she is still watching over you wanting you to be happy.

I am here if you want to talk. Stay strong.