Triggering (SH): 4 people I love gone.can't deal :'(

[amandaann]

I just found out my cousin died today of brain cancer. my friend died in a car accident a month ago and my great grandma 5 weeks. I wanna harm myself the feelings just won't go away. I'm so lost and clueless

[Le bonheur*]

Hi Amanda,

I'm not really sure what to say but I couldn't read and run. I really hope that you are okay and things start looking up for you. I'm sorry for your losses, sweets. I want you to know that those lovely people will always be with you in your heart and your memories. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love but it does get easier. I hope you find some comfort knowing that they're no longer suffering.

Take care of yourself, okay? <3

[amandaann]

I'll try I'm not sure what okay is anymore

[Iris. ♥]

Hey Amanda. I know that there's nothing I can say to make the pain go away, but I'm going to try my best to give you some hope. Like Brittany said, those people are still there, in your heart and in your thoughts. Personally, I believe that those who we love never truly leave us. Try to stay focused on the good times you had with your loved ones. It might make things a little easier. Also, it doesn't hurt to talk to people. Family and friends are the greatest support system you could ask for in times of loss. Remember, those people are proud of you and you touched each and every one of their lives in a special way. Take care of yourself girly.

[amandaann]

I'm never gonna get through school today

[Raining Glitter]

Originally Posted by mgdancer2014

I'm never gonna get through school today

Hi Amanda.

I'm sorry for your lost. Losing someone, definitely a few so close, and be really hard emotionally. I want to make sure you know you aren't alone. A lot of people go through what you are going through. Last year my high school lost two kids who were in my grade, one accidental and one suicide. I also lost my uncle to cancer unexpectedly this summer, so I understand how you are feeling. So do many people.

Please don't self harm. Although I never self-harmed my self, I was one suicidal and I nearly started self-harming after a family death during middle school. I know you might be hurting really bad inside right now, but self-harm isn't a method that can help you grieve and properly heal. I have friends who use to self-harm and they agree with me. I know it is hard, but replacing your pain with physical pain makes you hurt more inside and outside in the end. There's people around you who deeply care about you and they wouldn't like to see you handling pain in that way. Nor would those who you are grieving.

If you started to self harm, it is okay, it might be harder to get through but please don't give up hope.

Here's some information about the five stages of grief. http://psychcentral.com/lib/2006/the...oss-and-grief/
We all grieve differently, but everyone grieves. You aren't alone during this difficult time.

If you would like, I can help come up with grieving methods.

With what I quoted above- I know, the first day is always the hardest. Once you get through this day, it gets easier. There are people here to support you and you don't have to deal with this alone. Maybe try talking to a teacher, counselor, or school nurse. I know when a student dies that went to a high school, or a near-by high school, the school normally has grieving counselors there to help individual students and be there to listen. Try checking with your school. These people or even the counselor assigned to the school for emotional conflicts (ah I forgot what they call them at my school...) can help a lot.

Open up to family members and friends. Even if they are grieving too, I noticed grieving together makes things easier. Holding everything in does not help. All it does is bottle up more and more and more until it explodes, leaving you in a worse state. You shouldn't feel like you need to be strong for anyone. It is okay to open up and share how you are feeling. Remember you are human and you went through some hard events lately. There are people out there and even on the forums who care about you and want to help you through this process.

I hope some of this helps! Be happy to message me about anything. Times like these are tough, but you will get through it. Just stay strong and remember there are a lot of people who love you right now.

[amandaann]

I must found out my best friend who lives a state away committed suicide.