Am i cursed.

[cheyennealandis]

Its the begining of a new year and i thought maybe this year would be better, but it isnt. Last year i had about 6 deaths, a few of my dads friends at the begining of the year and a few in just a few weeks near christmas, my great aunt, my uncle and my friend of 12 years dad commit suicide, ive none this man since i was 3 years old, its like i sometimes lived there. My neighboor died, my dad has illnesses anyway like diabetes, enlarged heart, raised blood pressure, something to do with his heart and somthing else, but thats all fine, but my mum was taken to hospital yesterday because she was bleeding and had excrutiating stomach pains, they dont know what it was and released her and will make an appointment to do further tests, they dont know whether its something serious or if she had a misscarraige, bear in mind she is 46, so im more worried something is wrong but either way its bad. We have like no money to survive anyway which makes stuff worse and my exams are soon and i find it hard to study anyway without everything else. I used to be quite sad, i dont want to say depressed but i kind of was, i used to cut my self and stuff, but where i started trying to help other people who were depressed, i stopped as i helped myself also and it distracted me from it, i still have the occasional cry but many do. I just dont know what to do though it seems like EVERYBODY AROUND ME IS DYING OR GETTING HURT.

[Amberpamber]

Hey Cheyenne,

I'm sorry to hear about all your losses. Loosing people in your life is hard, especially those that are very clsoe to you. Sometimes it takes time to move on from it all or find the right way to deal with things. Feel free to pm me if you ever need to talk about anything.

[Chris.]

I'm Also sorry about the last few years. I don't have an explanation for you - and I'm not going to say I know what you are going through because I don't. All I can say is that things happen for a reason - and although you don't see it now, you will see it eventually. If you ever need to talk to anyone, you can always feel free to PM me.

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.



Best wishes,
Chris

[Squiggly]

I am so sorry to hear about how rough thing's have been on you in the last year. I am sorry for all of your losses and the problems with your parent's I would be sad and worried too. No matter how bad thing's can get it always always get's better eventually even when it sometimes seems like it never will. Again I am so sorry for everything I hope thing's get better for you really soon.

[cheyennealandis]

Thank you all, sorry i just needed a quick rant. Yeah im coping. Its obviously hard, its hard for everyone, im just going to get on my life, and help the ones that were closer to the people that died, for some reason it helps me, i think its because it takes my mind off it but as i help them,it helps me. Anyway thank you all so much xx

[Chris.]

No problem - you can always PM us anytime you want to rant or get anything off your chest! We are good with listening!


Best wishes,
Chris