Triggering (Bullying): for those of you who have been bullied..let me share my story with you

[I Miss You]

as i read these posts about bullying...

first of all..my heart goes out to each and everyone of you who is being bullied...

allow me to share my experince with you all...

from the 4th grade to the 12 grade..i was bullied very badly by other kids...

the words "retard,worthless..loser..just about every hurtful word you could ever call someone..i was it...

i was never invited to any parties..any dances..i didnt even go to my senior prom because of it..

everyday for more then 8 years..it was unbearable...even at graduation..it didnt stop...

as people walked in pairs to receive their diplomas..i walked alone..in fact i was the ONLY one in the entire school who did that...

the abuse started when i was ten..and contuined till i was eighteen..

people would call me names..threaten me in class...etc..

by the time i reached my teens...it didnt get any better..which led to my first suicide attempt...

and one time when i was a senior..after i had brought a rope to school..a classmate turned to me and said in his words"why dont you go hang yourself with it...no one will care...

but their was a important lesson i learned...most people who are bullied deal with it in two ways...

A:the person turns his or her anger,pain depression, outward...which can led to the person wanting to kill the bully like a school shooting ...etc

B:the person turns that pain,depression,anger,...inward..which can lead to self destructive acts such as self harm...or suicide

all i can tell people here..is that you are not alone ...because like you..i have gone through years and years of bullying...

i hope people here will read this and take my advice..its not worth dying for...

i hope this post will help people here

take it from someone who knows..and who has been right where you are

Drew

[Reverie.]

Drew, I totally get that. I've been bullied for as long as I can remember, and it's never easy. I'm type B, although I've never attempted suicide, have have self harmed. Bullies are life ruiners, and people who don't have a right to play with peoples heads the way they do. The problem is, as much as we can say this, it's always going to upset us. The hurtfull words they speak will always get to us no matter how much we tell ourselves we don't care. Bullies aren't worth thought over, or ones life, but infortunatly people can't stop being tormented inside their heads by it all.

I would give the same advice. Bullying is a cowards job, and to give a coward what he wants is always wrong. If we challenge ourselves to face such problems, we must challenge them to face their own. It only makes sense.

so to anyone reading this as well, Stay strong and keep your chin up. Drew, you can PM me at any time. <3

[Nutty Nat]

Ok i am abit of A and abit of B, my examples of A so you can't see me as a bad person tho are the following: beat up who was bullying me, beat up the persons friend, threatened them, two incidents with the police that i am not going into on the forum (sorry but they are staying in my past) and i turned into a horrible person to be around which lead to the following of B - self harm, suicidal, suicide attempts, traunting school(wagging it etc).

[BDF]

I'd say I'm A and B too. At first I thought definately and only A, but there have been times when I'd definately do things that would probably classify as self harm. An example would be punching the wall. Ironically I never broke my knuckles and in fact made them very hard insead which helped a lot in school.

It was rarely physical self-harm I think... more mental. It's too fucking complicated and I don't know how to explain it myself.

I say that I'm over it. But I'm not really... a lot of that shit has made me what I am today, and my skin crawls at the thought of it. It makes me even more angry, that I've allowed it to shape me so much, even though I fought back. It makes me want to go back to London to where my school was, find those shitheads and break their bones down to powder and snort it*... which is exactly what defines the type of person I am, and I hate it. And it goes in circles like that.

*PS I don't do drugs, it was just a metaphor

[I Miss You]

Originally Posted by Safe-inside-my-head

Drew, I totally get that. I've been bullied for as long as I can remember, and it's never easy. I'm type B, although I've never attempted suicide, have have self harmed. Bullies are life ruiners, and people who don't have a right to play with peoples heads the way they do. The problem is, as much as we can say this, it's always going to upset us. The hurtfull words they speak will always get to us no matter how much we tell ourselves we don't care. Bullies aren't worth thought over, or ones life, but infortunatly people can't stop being tormented inside their heads by it all.

I would give the same advice. Bullying is a cowards job, and to give a coward what he wants is always wrong. If we challenge ourselves to face such problems, we must challenge them to face their own. It only makes sense.

so to anyone reading this as well, Stay strong and keep your chin up. Drew, you can PM me at any time. <3

Excellent point Hollie...i couldnt have said it any better..

another point i wanted to get across is that there is a book out there by a very good freind of mine...her name is Jodee Blanco and she wrote a best selling book in 2003 titled "Please Stop Laughing At me"...and i can honestly tell you..it was one of the MOST important books i have ever read...