My axiety is taking over my life, i wan't to die.

[CityLights]

I have an extreme case emetophobia which is fear of vomiting.
This is the cause to my anxiety , i'm afriad i will barf in front of people in my classes or either on the bus, even when i feel fine my heart will start beating FAST and then i get really dizzy and thoughts on how i want to kill myself in a panis attack, and thoughts of what will i do if i need to vomit. This is always on my mind, it all started months ago in jan in my math class, now it's happening in all my classes, i'm scared the teacher won't let me go to the bathroom. i'm so scared i went to the doctors, they put me on adavint and now i'm on something called clonazepam, and i'm soon going to conseling.
i use to have panic attacks in all my classes, but it's getting better now.
i use to come home and just cry the whole night, i suffer even trying to get through a week of school, people always tell me "suck it up" but they just don't understand what i'm going through, it's terrifing, i can't pay attention in class. somone help me, on top of that my dad doesnt care about my disorder ( he doesnt rlly care about me at all ), and me and my mom fight to much, and my sister thinks i'm a pussy, and my brother well lets just say we have a horrible relationship, so basicly i have a shit support syestem. I had the urge to hang myself yesterday, but i know ill never do that. somone help me, what should i do i want my old life back !

[CityLights]

oh btw, i'm only 14

[Delivery]

I feel similar about my fear of germs. I just want to die from that. I feel there's absolutely no escape as they're everywhere.

You vomiting on the regular is highly unlikely unless you have some other disorder we don't know about.

Hopefully, you keep on getting better and be able to live the rest of your life. I have a lot of mental and emotional problems right now as a result of all the stuff that built up over the years. Hopefully, it shouldn't happen to you. I also have a shitty support system. Maybe a counselor will help.

[JackOffJill]

I can relate to your anxiety and how it makes it difficult for you to be in class and to pay attention. I have social anxiety and for some of the classes I have the hardest time being able to focus because of my anxiety. I think that by talking to a counselor it will help. Im sorry that you dont have much of a support system and that no one really understands your anxiety. I have run into that problem. I find that unless someone has experienced anxiety before that they think it is just being nervous and that you can easily get over it. But we know thats not what its like. Maybe once you begin seeing the counselor, you can ask if you can have a session with at least your parents so that you (with the help of the counselor) can explain what your anxiety is.

I hope that I helped a little. Anxiety is such a difficult thing to deal with, but it can get better.

[colin4566]

I have the exact same fear. Thats a reason why im home schooled. Everywhere i go i think 'what if i puke here?' Ive gotten better with it with the help of medication. PM if you need any help

[Stephanie]

Hey there,

I am sorry that your emetophobia is having such an extreme and distressing impact upon you.
I think that because this is having a strong impact on you and it is effecting you almost all day every day, negatively, then it would be a good idea to talk to a medical professional about this. I'm sorry to hear that your relationship isn't too good with your family and hopefully a counsellor could be of much more support to you. There are therapies, such as cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) that could be extremely helpful with your anxiety. It is important to think rationally about your phobia, even if that is difficult.

If you have been considering suicide then it is extremely important that you do reach out to someone as soon as possible. If you feel as though you're in immediate danger, do not hesitate to go to your local A&E or doctor.

Take care.