I Don't Know About Anything Anymore...

[sammip78]

i really need someone who can really understand what i am going through. right now i am questioning so many things. im scared that of my future just because i have no idea what it is going to be like. i have very bad anxiety and depression. i have been battling obesity since i was in grade school. right now i have been really trying to lose weight in the hopes that maybe losing this weight will put me in a better mind-set. i have been really scared that i am just letting life pass me by and that i am not embracing it. my only problem is that i dont know how to embrace it. lately i have been just sitting at home when i am not at the gym working out or if i am not at school. most the time i just think about what if i will never enjoy life again. i have been very negative and nervous lately because i have no idea where to start. i know that i have made 2 goals for myself and that is excercising 1 hour, 6 times a week, and following my weight watchers plan. i just ask myself these questions:
what am i going to do with my life?
am i letting life pass me by?
how can i be positive and not worry about my anxiety? (anxiety is always in the back of my mind and never goes away)
how can i live life again?
just so many questions go through my mind. i never enjoy life anymore. i always think of how i can fix my anxiety...what do i do?

im sorry that this is so long but i am so lost.

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

Hey Sammi.

I'm sorry things feel bad at the moment.

Make yourself a list of short term goals that aren't just about exercising and food and try to stick to them, for example, join a new school club, go to town, something like that. Have you got friends at school? Go out with them, even if you only go shopping or to the park.

The only way you can live life again is if you get out there and live it. Start small, and work up to bigger things.

If you're feeling really down, it might be a good idea to talk to your school counselor or to your parents.

I'm always here if you need someone to talk to online.

I hope things get better for you.

Hester. x