social anxiety!!

[Dark Horse]

so the other day this guy in my class wanted me to play the guitar for everyone. I reeeallly didn't want to; at school I usually keep to myself and dont talk much to people because I just CANT. I tried to tell him NO that I didn't want to but he literally dragged me to the front and gave me the guitar. now EVERYONE WAS WATCHING ME and I just went blank. I know so many songs but with everyone staring at me, I couldnt remember a SINGLE ONE!! I just sat there. It was the most embarrassing moment of my liiife!! then people started to question me on whether I really knew guitar or if I was only lying...that also really upset me. none of them understand what its like not being able to strike up a simple conversation with someone! I seriously wish I was home schooled

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I'm sorry to hear that you had such a bad experience.<3 That does sound like a really embarrassing situation and I'd probably be mortified if I was in that situation or something similar to it. But you know what? Ignore all those people that are questioning if you actually know how to play guitar. You know the truth; you know that you can play many songs but your anxiety was holding you back.

I know how difficult it can be in those situations. I have a similar problem. I'll be fine up to the point where I'm about to speak/perform/etc. in front of everyone with all their eyes watching me... I am a nervous wreck at the point. My last presentation didn't go as I wanted it to go because of it and I was incredibly upset with myself afterwards. So I know exactly how it feels.

My advice is to take baby steps to slowly get over your anxiety. Work up to playing for a large crowd of people. Maybe start off by just playing for one or two people and slowly work yourself to play for more people. I know that it's tough, but I believe in you. <3 Also, if you haven't already... talk to your friend about what happened. Just so the situation doesn't happen again.

I hope that one day you will be able to go out there and show all those people that doubted you that you can actually play guitar.
<3

P.S. If you ever need anyone to talk to or need someone to be there for you and help give you confidence/support... feel free to message me.<3

[Dark Horse]

Thanks I hope when I'm older I'll be a bit less shy, but for now I'll follow your advice!!