Fears

[icegirl]

Some bad stuff has happened to me in the last few years: my parents divorce, their friend dying in a fire, my parents' alcoholism, not really knowing who I am. I'm constantly afraid. I'm afraid one of my parents will have a bad day and ruin mine. I'm afraid one of them will die in the night from alcohol poisoning or drive under the influence. I'm always thinking about fires. I once cried for hours over a lit candle. But the worst part of it is that the world is passing by and I don't even remember what I ever saw in it. I don't really like talking to people anymore, and school stresses me out to the point of panic attacks, which isn't helped by the fact I take advanced classes. I've been arguing a lot with teachers, and I feel like I'm obnoxious, but at the same time it's like people see right through me. I have a therapist already and take medicine, but it's like nothing helps. I'm trapped in this endless bubble of bad memories.

[James_mc]

Originally Posted by icegirl

Some bad stuff has happened to me in the last few years: my parents divorce, their friend dying in a fire, my parents' alcoholism, not really knowing who I am. I'm constantly afraid. I'm afraid one of my parents will have a bad day and ruin mine. I'm afraid one of them will die in the night from alcohol poisoning or drive under the influence. I'm always thinking about fires. I once cried for hours over a lit candle. But the worst part of it is that the world is passing by and I don't even remember what I ever saw in it. I don't really like talking to people anymore, and school stresses me out to the point of panic attacks, which isn't helped by the fact I take advanced classes. I've been arguing a lot with teachers, and I feel like I'm obnoxious, but at the same time it's like people see right through me. I have a therapist already and take medicine, but it's like nothing helps. I'm trapped in this endless bubble of bad memories.

hey im james im srry for ur bad times but just remember who you are and never forget that ok im new at this but i found the best thing for happiness is just to open up i never opened up to anyone until TH came along it has helped me heaps hope it will help u to
if u wanna talk i will always help even if im not that good at it ,
just hope you r okay

[Rose-Lawliet]

gahhh im no professional but i kinda understand what you mean cos my parents are also divorced and i'm kinda overlooked but i found that the best thing is to hang out with your friends or simply chilling or hanging out with your pet (if you have one. I swear, it helps if you're lonely) or even facebooking. Idk, never really tried it, but in the hunger games triology they mentioned this method of 'finding yourself' by think about facts about yourself starting from the most basic and stuff eg

'my name is (whatever). I am (age) years old. blah blah blah blah

dunno if i helped, i probably made things worse :S oh well all the best!