Unsure...

[bee]

I am studying what is essentially technical theatre production, but im just not sure that this is what I want to be doing. I am dreading going back next year, so much so ive been crying over it. Im a bit prone to depression but managed to beat the worst of it but its creeping back now im worrying about this. I had a lot of issues with school and ended up in a specialist unit so I didn't do a lot of gcses like most people my age. I basically had a year off doing nothing and started this course in october and definitely havent enjoyed it so far. I have done 1 show so far and was sort of proud of myself but the hours were horrible, I hardly coped. I did this because I enjoy theatre and was interested in all the backstage stuff but now ive had experience I dont think im cut out for it, I guess its something you have yo be really passionate about. Doesn' help that I dont have any friends there either, in fact I feel that they all dislike me. My family is really proud of me and I know they would be really disappointed if I dropped out. I dont want to let them down again... and if I do leave what else am I going to do? I would like to do something at home but there isn't really any options for that.. im so depressed at the moment, I just wish I knew what I wanted to do. Right now I just want to stay at home away from everyone. All my social anxieties are coming back again

[Elizabeth]

You don't have to drop out. Can't you just change majors?

[bee]

Its really hard to do that in england, and besides my exam results are too bad to get onto a different course. I onky got onto it because at the time I was really sure about it and she saw how much I wanted a place

[Missmaggie55]

Hi there,

It is totally normal to not know exactly what you want to do at this stage in life. The fact that you were proud of the last show you did, tells me there is an aspect of creating or building somethng that makes you feel good. You also mentioned that you may have a little bit of social anxiety which leads you to want to stay home and not venture into unknown waters. The thing is, in order for us to find your passion and purpose, you have to try some things on and see what doesn't work. Technical theatre production may not be your thing, but it might lead you to something that is! Stick to it for the moment. It always amazes me how things fall into place. You might meet someone or learn something that changes your career path completely.

As a life coach for teens and young adults, I also have some great exercises that help to pinpoint passion and purpose. Get a notebook and ask yourself some questions.

What do I enjoy doing? When am I happiest? Who do I admire? What do I feel strongly about? If I were to live anywhere in the world, what type of environment would I want to live in? What am I scared of? What am I proud of? What would be the ultimate accomplishment for me? What would be the nicest thing someone could say about me?

These are just a few to start you off but, I promise that you will find your passion. I am always here to chat with if you have any questions or need some advice. You can also email me at Maggie@start-living-your-life.com.

Sending you strength and courage.