Song/Quote of the day!

[hocus pocus]

I'm terrified I'll be faking forever.

It is very hard to explain to people who have never known serious depression or anxiety the sheer continuous intensity of it. There is no off switch. --Matt Haig

[Storyteller.]

you're alone, you're on your own -
so what? have you gone blind?

have you forgotten
what you have
& what is yours?

glass half empty, glass half full -
well either way you won't be going thirsty.
count your blessings, not your flaws.

Who’ll be my Montague now,
To this broken Capulet
How, how, how if not for you
And you’ll be my local hero
Be my role model
And don’t, don’t, don’t fail me now

I will love you like goodbye
I will love you like you died, died
A martyr for me

[Eternal]

The week days disappear and then
A decade and I fear the rest of each day
We're eating because he paid
Money means everything that he say
Twenty just to behave
“I will pull the car over won't hesitate
I swear you that you don't really wanna test me on the freeway”

[Starseeker]

You wanted violins
And you got Nero

I love sleep. My life has a tendency to fall apart when I am awake, you know? --Ernest Hemingway.

[Nala.]

"Worrying is using your imagination to create something you don't want."

Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength. -- Charles Spurgeon

[Jack Lowden]

So sit down, shut off
I don't know how I let you lead so long
'Cause right now you're only holding me back
'Cause I'm not where I want to be
& You're not who I wish you were
So I'll rest my eyes & we'll try in another life

[Storyteller.]

it's the only thing in life
that keeps my mind sane.

but was it worth the consequences?
it numbs the hurt. it numbs the pain.

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase. --Martin Luther King Jr.

[Nala.]

"Holding on is believing that there's only a past; letting go is knowing there's a future." - Daphne Rose Kingma

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Im waking up
Hey, my life is real great, feel I'm well on my way to my dreams coming true and I'm getting to do with you

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall, everyone stands
Another day, and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold


Speak to me
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along


So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Scars are souvenirs you
Never lose
The past is never far

Did you lose yourself
Somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?

Don't it make you sad to
Know that life
Is more than who we are?

[Celyn]

Always look on the bright side of life?

Everyone in this town
Is seeing somebody else
Everybody's tired of someone
Our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin

[Kintsukuroi.]

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

[Nala.]

“We are alone with our changing minds. We fall in love 'til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time.”

[Mindfulness.]

Waiting for love - Avicii.

Testing, testing, I'm just suggesting,
You and I might not be the best thing,
Exit, exit, somehow I guessed it right, right,
But I still want you, want you,
Don't mean to taunt you, If you leave now,
I'll come back and haunt you,
You'll remember, return to sender now, now

Well I just wish we could go back one more time and begin it,
Back before I lost myself somewhere, somewhere in it.

"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope." - Martin Luther King Jr.

[Storyteller.]

i'm erasing myself from the narrative.

"Happy is the man who has broken the chains which hurt the mind, and has given up worrying once and for all." - Ovid

I'm stumbling, I can’t see straight
And it's my fault I got this way
I got my hands on something great
And found a way to mess it up
I did my best, I tried to change
But it's just in my DNA
I got my hands on something great
And found a way to f**k it up again


Now I’m the one thing, you couldn't hate more
But you're the one thing that I would die for

It's like I'm drowning at sea
Hoping that you reach for me
I know you're there, but I can't see
'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings
I'm dying to breathe
And all you do is strangle me
Such a beautiful relief
'Cause I'm so drunk off tragic endings

Carry me through this world of lies
I feel no more, the suffering
Bury me in this cold light
I feed the wolf, and shed my skin


I can see the devil closing in
I choke the breath that dies to cry for help
I feel the pull of gravity
I bleed no more, and rise again
I've lost it all

Come on, it's me you're talking to
There's something going on inside of you
Don't have to say it
But I wish you would
Cause it would be much easier
You always hide behind yourself
You walk a lonely road with no one's help
I hate to break the news
You're headed for a fall

And if I have to jump, then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight
You can scream and shout
I'll push and pull until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with you
Sticking with you

Even if you try and shut me out
I'm staying here, 'cause that's what love's about
I might let you down, but I won't let you go
So lean into me, I want to know
Everything about the fear you hold
Inside, cause you and I are better than just one

That's what it means to love you
That's what it means to have your back
That's what it means to show you

"Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?"

- Epicurus

[Mindfulness.]

Mirror - Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
And perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by, but you're barely scraping by.


This is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places you have come to fear the most,
Is the places you have come to fear the most.

[Gwynbleidd]

Tell me a lie in a beautiful way,
I believe in answers, just not today.

[Starseeker]

Where they sit around
And get a round in while the getting's good
They'll make the most until the money's gone
They're coming out to celebrate, to sing and dance and to escape
A crazy world where everything seems wrong
Drinking to forget and to remember all the glory days
The days we stood apart and we stood strong
Though the beer befuddles sense
It can't provide them recompense
They settle for another drinking song

(Skyclad - Another drinking song)

[Gwynbleidd]

It’s stuck on repeat
Making me breathe
Ever so deeply inside
Am I sleeping
I’ve tried screaming
Nothing can keep me alive
It seems easy
Make believing
Leaving these feelings behind
It’s deceiving
Guaranteeing
Nothing is seemingly right

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Starseeker]

The world is on fire
And you are here to stay and burn with me
A funeral pyre
And we are here to revel forever-

The world is on fire
And we are tied as one eternally
A funeral pyre
And we are here to revel forevermore

(Ghost - Deus in absentia)

[Starseeker]

Seems so many years now since he set off down the road
For the bright lights of the city and his story to unfold
No strings, no family plans, no ties to hold him down
His first avowed intent, to leave this dormitory town
At first, he lay just dreaming till he hit upon a plan
To be a true civilian and a well-travelled man

His father told him: "Listen son, the world lies at your feet
Great lands of opportunity and strangers all to meet"

So seize the day, go make your mark,
'cause fortune loves the brave
So many places to be seen
Before you see your grave

See the stars shoot over Cape Town
Where the oceans all converge
Ride the desert train at midnight
Even sail the universe

Gather round, come one, come all
Listen best ye can
Raise a glass and give a cheer
You can see all at once he's a well-travelled man

That long and dusty trail, it ran to anywhere but home
Dined equally with pagan chiefs and emperors of Rome
Through ages dark and winters long, lost in the strangest lands
Through countless revolutions saw man's cruelty to man

Been a butcher, been a saviour
Been a friend you wouldn't choose
Built temples and filled graveyards
For the side that couldn't lose

Would you walk with him as spirits
In the quiet of the night
And seek to have the power
For to set the world to right?

Gather round, come one, come all
Listen best ye can
Raise a glass and give a cheer
You can see all at once he's a well-travelled man

Gather round, come one, come all
Listen best ye can
Raise a glass and give a cheer
You can say what you like, he's a well-travelled man

Seems so many years now since he set off all alone
To see the wonders of this world, prove the stories he'd been sold
Seeks the "milk of human kindness" and he takes it where he can
From the yachts of Monte Carlo to a teahouse in Japan

But now, he sits forsaken with a beer glass in his hand
Won't anybody listen to the well-travelled man?

(Skyclad - A Well-Travelled Man)
This song is just so beautiful.

I really believe that all of us have have a lot of darkness in our souls. Anger, rage, fear, sadness. I don't think that's only reserved for people who have horrible upbringings. I think it really exists and is part of the human condition. I think in the course of your life you figure out ways to deal with it. - Kevin Bacon

[Eternal]

You have lost
Too much love
To fear, doubt and distrust
Its not enough
You just threw away the key
To your heart
You don't get burned
'Cause nothing gets through

Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense