Triggering (Suicide): Emotional Abuse and suicide thoughts

[Maegan]

At least every single day my parents make me cry, they always answer me ugly and make me seem as the worst child ever. I dont do drugs im okay in school I have adhd so i try my best but at times i get lazy just like a teen would. My dad is never home because of his job so me and my brother and sister are home with mom. Im 16 im the oldest and my mom always treats me like im an idiot. She says i back talk when i dont, im devensive but i never backtalk. Then when im accused of something i didnt do she calls my dad and he yells at me. Im so stressed out and i have moments of thinking to commit suicide. Help? Advice? Anything Please

[CaughtInMyHead]

I'm sorry to hear this, you're not alone I used to live in this kind of situation (except it was with my brother instead of parents). Maybe you could try and talk calmly with your mom about it, try to explain to her how it's making you feel. Although I know a lot of people can't talk and explain stuff to their abusers, so maybe you could write her a letter. Or you could talk to another trusted family relative or a close friend or a counsellor. Try to vent as much as you can with people you trust, don't keep things bottled in or you'll only hurt more. I know it can be hard, but you can make it through. Please don't commit sucide, you deserve to live a long and happy life. Whenever I got so hopeless that sucidal thoughts crossed my mind I'd think of all the people I'd hurt - friends and family. Find a reason to live, something to strive for. Even if it's to have a better relationship with your mother.
I wish the best for you