Going Strong, Going On

[EbonyStarr]

May 1998: Stabbed and angry at the world
March 2006: My life changed...

For 8 years I was angry at the world for my being abused and stabbed..8 years it took me to realize that my childhood isn't the fault of the world. I spent 8 years hurting the people around me..2 years drinking away my fears, my heartache, my pain..3 years convincing myself there was a God..6 years mad at him for letting the world the world hurt me.

In 2006 I hit rock bottom..my counselors gave up on me..my friends gave up on me..My mom kicked me out of the house.. I was alone no where to go and I looked to the sky crying and cursing all things.. I walked to the corner store and saw my reflection in one of the gas pumps..I was a disgrace..Everything I cursed for my childhood was what I became.. I was all evil.. I went to the nearest payphone, called the one man I had never meant and only spoken to a handful of times and asked could I stay with him...He said yes. That man was my father. I moved to his house in a new state, hours away. No one knew me..I could finally start over. It hasn't been easy, but after 3 years of struggling, I'm a senior, something I thought would never happen..I haven't taken a drink in two years..I don't hate the world..I don't blame God..I'm taken responsibility for the reaction I had to the terrible actions of my childhood..I'm ready to face the world..I'm ready for whatever..I'm so proud of myself..

[Mikey09]

You deserve the best Good luck!!! <3 The world has a really good side to it too, You just have to go get it

[Pour the Teapot]

that's fantastic! i'm so glad you're happy again!

[~CourageousSurvivor~]

Reading this was so sad but then it got happy...bittersweet...it made me want to cry because it seems like you have been through so much but you have come out on top. I am so happy for you.

[Perplexity]

Wow, is all I can say after reading your story through. It really does seem as though you've been through a lot in your life so far, but you've made it through it all. I think you should be proud of yourself for getting through all that you have. You've really come a long way.