My Recovery

[VampirePrincess]

Hello, everyone!

I'm here to share my recovery story with you all, and hopefully it will help some of you recover as well.

I used to have lots of problems with depression. I had low self-confidence and self-esteem and I always felt like a failure. I thought I was ugly and that no one would ever love me. And then it progressed to cutting...and then I became suicidal, but luckily was too scared to ever act on it.

It was a slow progression, a few years in the making. The last nine months of it were the worst. When people tried to help me (it was rare, but it did happen), I would scream and argue until they didn't want anything to do with me anymore. I thought I was beyond saving.

I am now proud to say that I have been cut-free for 8 months! I know that I will never cut again, which is why I say I have successfully recovered. Yes, I still have my depressed moments. Last night was one of those. But even people who don't struggle with depression can still be depressed at times. So I'm not worried.

It wasn't easy. And I didn't do it alone. I don't know if I could have done it alone. But it was amazing what a difference it was to always have someone to talk to when I was sad, even if it was 3 AM. And that for every insult I could throw at myself, there was someone there to argue against every one of them.

Just like after years of being told I was a failure, I had believed that...now I was being told I was a success, and that's what I believed. And still believe, for the most part. I can be myself again without being ashamed.

I wish I could tell you exactly how I recovered. Except...I don't remember. All I know is, one day I wanted to kill myself. And I woke up the next morning...happy. Cheerful, even. And enjoying life a lot more.

I don't think I'll ever forget what happened to me, although sometimes I wish I could. But I feel that knowledge will help me to help others.

Thanks for listening/reading

[Katrina]

That's wonderful to hear, Christine. [:

It was absolutely heartwarming to read your story, so I do hope that you'll continue to share it around TH in hopes to inspire others and show them that rescue is possible. Eight months is a huge accomplishment, so many congratulations on that. I'm so, so glad that your life is going well, and I'm sure that you are as well. Take care of yourself; never stop believing in yourself. ^___^

[Magical Forest.]

Thats really great to hear

You've come such a long way, well done for being so brave and helping yourself. 8 months self harm free? Thats amazing, I know how hard it is, well done you!

I'm currently in the 'recovering' stage, so reading your post has given me hope, a lot of things you said I could identify with.

Good luck with everything!

x

[udontno]

Wow, cut free for eight months? That is so impressive. You should really be proud of yourself. Eight months is so long. It's amazing that you have a great support system.

[*Jen*]

That is amazing Christine :-) You have come so far and you should be so proud of yourself for being 8 whole months self harm free! It can't have been easy at all to give up self harm and get to where you are now so I think you are so strong. It just shows it is possible to stop self harming. Keep smiling :-)