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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
I'm such a failure.
April Fool.
Fuck you life. I fucking hate you.
WHY do I ruin everything good?
I fucking miss him like FUCK, and just because i'm so broken and sensitive.
Well Sven i'm sorry ok, I never deserved your friendship and never will.
I never planned on hurting you. I don't understand how you can love me.......
there is NOTHING good about me :,(
God made me, so the haters have something to laugh at.
Well at least I make some people happy.
.....“You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.”.....
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
Im so destroyed, i dont even read others posts...
I miss her so so much... There isnt a day that goes by without me not remembering her, and when she said: We shouldnt talk that much no more... That pierces through my heart every day, every time, i remember those words...
And i love her so so much... My snowflake...
I want to talk to her, and i dont know what to say... I never deserved her... Im such an idiot for bonding... I miss her optimism, her words, her x's and o's, when we pretend those were kisses and hugs... Every day, that hole, that crack in my heart goes bigger and bigger... I knew she never really cared, but I still cant stop caring. All of my friends say that i should forget her and i cant. I know she has her flaws but all of those flaws look like nothing... I just want to talk to her... She was the first person i prayed for when she was sick... I never prayed for anyone, except her. I said: God, give her strength, make her feel better...
I loved how she was so delicate and sensitive, i had to take extra care for her... My little snowflake...
I ruined everything, i should have waited to tell her i love her, and i had so much shit that day, and i let her out on her, and i feel so so so sorry... I wanted to kill myself, i would have so many lines on my i couldnt recognise myself in the mirror, but Taylor saved me. Thank you for that, for being my support, for sacrificiting so much to make me feel better... Im forever in your debt...
And to you my snowflake... I never asked for a partner relationship. I asked for only friendship, and i lost that too, not because of you, but because of me, because I scared you, the last person i wanted to scare... And every day, how time goes by, i count my future lines when i relapse... Every day without you ads a few lines... I miss you so so so so much...
I'm scared to near paralytic levels by the thought of growing up. Physically, not responsibly. I'm scared of becoming a man, because I'm not one. Someone should SERIOUSLY tell my body that. Testosterone ravaged it once, and now I'm worried it'll ravage it again. Why couldn't I have known sooner? Why couldn't anyone have known? The signs were there, but everyone, myself included, completely missed them. It's worse because I feel like I'm not making any progress, and I'm worried that one day I'm going to wake up and find it's too late.
why can't you be there for me....you're supposed to be this all around amazing guy, everybody fucking adores you, i'm supposed to be your 'best' friend but you refuse to listen to me....why can't you be more like him...he's there, he listens, he doesn't judge me....and we're not even that close. if somebody i'm not close to can be here for me, why can't my best friend... why are you such an asshole?!
all i want is a place to call my own and
mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone,
woah,
you know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low.
Location: With God on the corner of First and Amistad
Posts: 2,627
Points: 25,799, Level: 23
Join Date: July 22nd 2011
Re: Screaming thread. -
April 5th 2013, 02:42 AM
Oh my.... Okay here's some common sense, it sounds like you need it. When your mother told me to leave you and your family alone.. she meant she doesn't want you doing anything with me... so why do you still bother me? What? Are we at war now? You hav eto get back at me for getting you grounded? It's not my fault your mom doesn't like me because I have a mental disorder... But when you make comments like "I wouldn't care if you fell of the face of the Earth and died!" I'm sorry, but comments like that make me want to die.... I don't sugar coat things sweeite.. No, I give people the real deal.. you make me want to kill myself. I'm not saying to make you pissed, I'm saying it to make you realize what you're doing is wrong! But now that I've left you alone... please leave me alone! Stop with the dirty looks, the talking shit aout me, talking to my family, and I don't want your friends messaging me on FB, stop texting me, or whatever you so please to do. Don't you get? You've already broke everything that I am. Congrats.. you won! Now just leave me alone! I can't take this anymore!
~I was always scared of everything, even the carousel.~
~Don't worry about me. I'm sort of feeling fine, but by tomorrow, I'll be back on my feet again.~
Great.
One of my best friends on here has been turned against me.
Now she hates me. She'll probably never speak to me again.
Fantastic. Just fucking fantastic.
ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I get a freaking 27 on a practice ACT my school put on for all of the juniors, and you decide that that isn't near a good enough score?! The average is 19-21!!!! And a 27 isn't fucking good enough?! What the hell mom?! This is why I don't tell you things ever!!!
It was you who got me into this mess.
You and your deliberately provocative comments.
If I was smarter, I would have responded better.
But, no, I didn't. Now I pay.
It only takes one look at the news to remember that I could have very real reasons to fear for my life if I transition. And that terrifies me in ways you can't begin to imagine.
You call me jealous, but I'm not. There's a difference between jealousy and actually being excluded from everything you all are doing. RX: you always say "If you need to talk, I'm here for you," as if you want to know all my secrets. And yet you don't tell me a thing. And we've been friends longer than you and RP yet you both go out of your way to have private conversations right in front of me. And RP: Don't you dare call me jealous! You watch as your friend/my 'friend' says "Go away Mads, no one wants you here," like it doesn't hurt. Well news flash: it does. It's not a joke anymore. In fact, it was NEVER a joke.
Some friends you guys are.
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan
why the fuck cant i do anything right?
i was finally fucking happy. but no. you had to come the fuck back and ruin everything.
and me being the screw up i am, could only hold you off for what, two fucking days?
its pathetic.
Im the worst and no one can fucking fix that.
SHIT.
formerly snowstorm, GoneBeyondRepair, and Breathless in Love
I'm failing and everyone else is somewhere in the 90% range WHAT THE FUCK?!?!
If I fail and get kicked out of this program don't think for a second that I won't FIGHT LIKE HELL to stay in it. I will take responsibility where it's mine, but this isn't ALL me and I won't just let you convince them that it is.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
mum, you found out what i do and you asked me to write a letter to explain why i feel the way i do. please stop pestering me and hurrying me for this letter and just try to understand that it's difficult to put my feelings into words and that it's hard to think about some of the things that have happened.
dad, i'm very different to you and i need you to accept it! stop trying to make me a miniture version of you! you're making it so difficult for me to make you proud and it's because i'm the genius you wanted me to be! leave me alone and don;t speak to me!
college people, stop judging me. i'm no different to you on the inside, i have feelings too. stop making assumptions, thinking you know me when you don't.
Not only can I not say "no" to you when you want to fuck with me, but I'm pretty sure now since you're just getting to me whenever and wherever you want, including around my friends and your friends, that it is making me seem like the easy little whore!
GOD!
I love you! BUT DO YOU EVEN CARE!!!!!
fuck everyone. i freaking hate people. how can you be so rude and annoying and just plain STUPID? there's nothing wrong with not being the smartest person around if you just TRY! put some effort into it! it frustrates me to just watch!!!
you're one of my best friends. why do you act like you're mad at me? be so outgoing and fun around everyone BUT me? you spend more time with strangers than you do with me!!!! i know you judge me. i trust you with my life. why can't you do the same???
stop using me. I'm not that fucking stupid.
don't act like you care if you don't. I'm not that fucking stupid.