Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

I'm NOT ready to go back tomorrow and I'm paranoid that she will show up AGAIN and I will be required to delay my life because of her for the sake of my sanity. WHERE IS MY SYLLABUS?! Last semester I got it a week early which made my decision easy, this time, nothing, really??!! If you hadn't helped me last time I would've nagged you by now.

[nothereanymore]

Thirsty. Ass. Hos. Back. Off. My. Boyfriend.
I let it go and I shouldn't have. He thinks it counts as cheating. I should have too. But I'm a doormat.

[Everglow.]

My life will amount to nothing. I'm pathetic and useless.

[THE FAPMAN]

Holy maderfaker. So much negative text 'ere...
Well...
FUCK YOU WEATHER. AND FUCK YOU WALL.
AND FUCK YOU... RUBBER DUCK!

[Kate*]

I leave for class in an HOUR please decide what building I'm going to. You've changed buildings 3 times in 24 hours. And PLEASE GOD, DO NOT let her show up there or I will drop immediately. If SHE can handle 10 people by herself, surely the guy with the degree can handle 11 of us on his own.

So the grading scale is a little bit different. I've made the decision to stay, so hopefully it's different enough that I can pass this time. If I do just like I did last time I won't, but at least one grade will be higher because I'm already A LOT more comfortable with him than I ever was with either of them and I feel like if I asked him to help me, he would actually give me something I could use. If he can get me above a 6 for the first time since the second one then I will be fine. It's all confidence and once that's restored I can do anything. Of course I felt this good last semester and it fell apart. PLEASE don't let the language barrier cost me points! I have nothing against her, but trouble understanding her could interfere and lower my score.

The last time I didn't get the bitch there were twice as many people and the last time there were this many people, I got the bitch. Both those problems are fixed now so maybe I can do it. I'm scared (and I should be), but I'm sick of running away in fear, losing my friends, and falling behind.

[hocus pocus]

Oh my god.

You had a dream about her last night; and then you saw an elderly woman that looked just like her. I had a vision last night, and I saw a woman just like her walking down a major highway today. When he died, I had a vision and fell asleep the same minute his heart stopped beating. She has to make it. Just five more days, please. Just so I can hug her for one last time. We're either crazy or we're even closer to the end..

[Azure.]

Today marks exactly one month since he died. It doesn't feel like it's been that long.

[NotExactlyCrazy]

No, YOU are the bitch.


Maybe if you listened you'd know I was depressed!
I've told you how hard menial tasks are for me. And how hard they have been for me for the past two years. I've told you that I wanted to commit suicide. I've told you that it's hard just to get out of bed in the mornings. I've told you that Brady breaking up with me hurt more that I told him. I've told you how much pain I am in every single day.
You didn't listen.
And if it hadn't been for Will, I wouldn't be here.
You don't love me.
I am YOUR DAUGHTER. But you do not love me. You never will.
And I will never again give you the opportunity to know me.
I am going to college in a year and a half. When I go I am never coming back.
And guess what? There is nothing you can do to stop me.

[Kate*]

Great, I finally think I can master that and now this. You are absolutely AWESOME which is really the only reason I took the class to begin with. PLEASE don't let me get dismissed for losing participation points in it! And please let me get a good group so that that doesn't compound the problem. I COMPLETELY understand the reasoning behnd it and that's not what I'm arguing with, I'm taking steps to handle the issue, please don't let me lose everything in the meantime.

I was worried about having nothing to talk about next week: Now I have an excellent place to start.

[Rivière]

I get a nice new dongle. My brother replaces the old crappy router. My internet still resets itself.

Yay internet!

[hocus pocus]

I'm extremely exhausted and dissociative. I feel unreal. Floaty. Lightheaded. Fake. It's all a dream.. wake me up.

Another bad grade. An F. F is for failing. F is for not good enough. F.F.F.F. If I keep this up, I'm going to fail the entire class. And I can't possibly tell them that I'm struggling.

[mindflower]

Don't. Don't you dare acknowledge a single one of them. You have a boyfriend, Taylor, one that loves you very much, that or of course he's using you and you're just the stupid little whore again. Sure, that's how it always fucking is, right? Don't look at Matthew, remember what he told you. Remember how he hurt you. Don't look at Cody, remember what he did. You have a boyfriend, Taylor. Get a fucking grip. Not that he actually likes you or anything and he'll probably dump you for someone actually cool and pretty and better at everything. You're a disaster. Why do you even try? Wake up. Stop looking at them.

[Ghost On The Highway]

BYAHHHHH!!!! (Howard Dean Scream)

[Rivière]

I am so sick of this anxiety today. Go away!

[Jovial.]

Am I really that much of bitch? That hard to get along with? Do I really ask crazy things of people? Do I ask to much? To be cared about?

[hocus pocus]

Whoops, did I just less than half ass that essay? If you can't send me the right materials, then I can't write the right essay! You didn't specify how long it was, so I did a paragraph. And you know what? I don't give a shit. You want bullshit about characteristics of life and blah, I'll give you a characteristic. Death. Humans are born to die. And they don't come back. Fail me, bitch. I dare you. Go ahead. I'm already feeling bad enough so another let down won't hurt me much more.

[nothereanymore]

Well that wasn't the response I wanted. Fuck you.

[nothereanymore]

Or be nothing short of an asshole. What the fuck is wrong with you?

[Spiderpig]

Singing boy band crap into your hairbrush is going to get said hairbrush put where the sun don't shine if you don't STFU. @-@

[hocus pocus]

Trying not to give in but so desperately want to. My bones are terrible right now.

[hocus pocus]

Wow. I just realized, that, I have, like, no sense of time. At all. I came across something from two weeks ago and it seems like it was just yesterday. I'm going through the motions. What the fuck is my problem?

[Rivière]

All these pictures I have of myself just makes me want to cut my own eyes out.

[Kate*]

Who in their right mind ordered the fire drills at 3:20AM yesterday and 1:45 AM this morning in the middle of f***ing JANUARY?!?!?! The next time I leave this building at that hour in my pajamas in the freezing cold there had better be a REAL FIRE!

Great, I find out 12 hours before that this guy is out-of-network. This had better be affordable because I need it so bad I don't care anymore, but maybe the self-pay rate will be reasonable or I can work something out.

[hocus pocus]

My back is killing me. And this is so uncomfortable.

[Lumos.]

Thanks for being a bitch. I didn't want it to end this way but whatever, I'm fucking hurt but you don't seem to give a damn. This is just what i need right now. Fuck you..

[Forging Galaxies]

All this time, everything I've provided and promised for you. You're going to leave me?
It's the wrong choice and you know that!

[hocus pocus]

I think I actually have a chance at recovering this time.. and that fucking terrifies me.

[Rivière]

Just want Sunday where I'm not doing anything. Have a day resting but no. Come barging into my room with some old box and start talking to me WHEN I CAN'T EVEN HEAR YOU because my headphones are on and when I say I'll look in a minute, you continue talking to me and don't leave me alone. Now I'm in a bad mood. Thanks.

[nothereanymore]

I love how it wasn't even a real conversation. That's all you wanted Skype for, to further pester me for things I have already said no to a thousand times. I wanted to see your face and talk to you. But you could have cared less.

[Nightblood.]

You can't guilt me into shopping and going through all thousands of my pictures and then get upset when I fail the quiz/assignments tomorrow and this week. This was my homework day and you're guilting me into other shit. I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO COME HOME BUT I DID BECAUSE I'M NICE.

Don't get mad at me when I fail this time.

[hocus pocus]

Ow. Cramps. I hate being a girl. And I hate PMS.

[Kate*]

You're really nice, but you agreed to schedule it and then let me know when it was, I have not heard from you and that's not okay.

[nothereanymore]

Well fuck you very much.

[Jordioa18]

Where in the godverdedomme is my fucking chance to find love again!? If I see couples all around me, I just cannot take it anymore

[Kate*]

I've written this paper 4 times now, and gotten full points the other 3. You don't understand how badly I needed full points! And that's after you said you WEREN'T grading hard. What the f***?!?! and I don't even know why I lost a point for "turning it in by the deadline' when it was submitted a day EARLY! If I fail again it won't be for lack of effort, it will be your grading scale.

[mindflower]

I AM A FUCKING WORTHLESS, UGLY, FOOLISH PIECE OF DEPRESSING, HOPELESS SHIT AND I HOPE I DIE. EVERYONE WANTS ME TO DIE. EVERYONE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT ME IN THEIR LIVES AND I'M NOT AN IDIOT, I FUCKING SEE THAT NOW. PAT IS GOING TO BREAK UP WITH ME AND ITS NO SECRET WHY. WHY WOULD ANYONE LOVE ME? MATTHEW HATES MY FUCKING GUTS AND I SHOULDN'T CARE BUT I DO WAY TOO MUCH. I'M A DICK TO MIMI AND A DICK TO MY FRIENDS, I AM A HUGE-ASS BURDEN ON MY FAMILY, AND I AM JUST THIS NUCLEAR BOMB WAITING TO EXPLODE AND EVERYONE IS RUNNING FOR THE HILLS.
I'M FAT, FAKE, CRAZY, RECKLESS, STUPID, DESPERATE, AND A WHORE. I DON'T EVEN GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE. I HOPE WHEN I WALK OUTSIDE AN ICICLE FALLS ON MY HEAD AND GOES THROUGH MY SKULL OR I GET HIT BY A BUS OR I JUST SHRIVEL UP AND ROT AWAY.
FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.
WHY DO I EVEN TRY ANYMORE GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.

[nothereanymore]

Well that was interesting. Love you too baby. Fucking asshole.

[nothereanymore]

I'm so fucking sorry that you have to pay for my contacts, Mom. When I get a job I'll fucking pay for them. But trying to get me to wear my contacts for longer than they're recommended to save your precious money MAY NOT BE FUCKING SAFE. I'm sorry that I don't want to get an eye infection, or have the contacts not work as effectively because I wore them longer than I was supposed to. I'll be out of your house and out of your wallet when I'm 18. Until then just chill the fuck out and read the directions - daily. disposable. contacts.
Not two days. Not three days. DAILY.

[Konohana Sakuya]

I am so sick of pretending to be happy-go-lucky and innocent.

[Everglow.]

Feel so lonely and pathetic. I'm literally nothing special. I'm just nobody.