Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

I guess it's good that I'm going this summer since you're not teaching in the fall. This way I'll at least have a CHANCE of getting a hold of you to see if anybody can come up with anything and it helps that our schedules are the same. Even if you aren't teaching, you can't just disappear! I'm screwed without you available and I think we both know that.

[Tigereyes]

Fuck everything. I'm done with this shit.

[Forging Galaxies]

Just!
Just screw you all!

Haunt me with these memories and you expect me to act "good-hearted"?
Why don't you just give me something to die for?!

[Kintsukuroi.]

I hate you. Just shut up and leave the the fuck alone. Stop telling me to kill myself, you're only pushing me closer. I am very well aware that I am worthless, and a fuck up. I dont need you telling me the same thing over and over again. Just shut up and leave me the fuck alone.

[Chai.]

Sorry to burst your bubble again, but I seriously don't care what you think of me. What matters to me is what I think about myself and well maybe a few other people's opinion does matter, you are definitely not one of them. So you can keep your stupid opinions and your silly voice to yourself and stop fucking with my life!!!

[Chai.]

Damn! I am so useless! How many times am I going to fuck up!

[Most Likely]

all that's left I guess

[Em.]

I have four fucking best friends cutting or trying to kill themselves and I cant stop any of them. Im losing my mind here I dont know what to do if any of them do anything im going too I dont even care anymore

[THE FAPMAN]

Damn you stalker. Looking at what I type in le screaming thread.
I type LE SHITE.
Holy shit my meds are still holding. Jesus fucking christ. Awful.

[Azure.]

Something inside of me feels like it's going to burst. I don't know what it is, but I can tell you that it's not a pleasant feeling.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Everything's all my fault. Such a burden and a nuisance.

[kodz]

Why would she be so mad at me for
Homie I don't know she's hot cold
I won't stop won't mess my groove up
Cause I already know how this thing go.

[THE FAPMAN]

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHY AM I ALWAYS THE BAD GUY?!
FOR MOTHERFUCKING SHIT FUCK YOU.
TO HELL WITH YOU AND YOUR SHITTING AROUND. THATS ALL YOU CAN DO.
COME AND SIT ON THE COUCH AND START YAPPING. THESE POPCORNS ARE TOO OLD. THE TV IS BORING. THE SOFA IS UNCOMFORTABLE. WELL FUCK YOU. MAKE YOUR OWN POPCORNS. CHANGE THE CHANNEL YOUR HIGHNESS. BUY ANOTHER SOFA YOU BILLIONARE.
You think im a bad guy? Alright, Ill be the bad guy... You havent seen a b from how bad i can be...
Miserable, sick, fat piece of shit.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Just shut the fuck up, I really don't give a shit what you have to say. Can you stop being a douche please. I don't need your words tonight, I'm in a bad enough place already. Justleave me alone.

[Em.]

That's another person gone.. I really dont think im going to make it through the night

[Chai.]

Urgh! i can't take this anymore! I hate this back pain! 4 frigging years and it still hasn't stopped!
What does the doctor say? Exercise will help!!
Damn you! Exercise hurts a lot more!

[Lionheart]

You always go on about how you are worried about me abd that I should tell you if I gave any problems or need someone to talk and now what? I told you just a tiny little thing and even contemplated to tell you everything and you suddenly turn away telling me we can not be as close as you wanted us to be and that it is ok and that you still think I am a good person. You dismissed me just when I was working up the courage to trust in you and ask you for help. That's why I don't trust prople in the first place. That's why I gave up even asking for advice. Do you have any idea how much you hurt me? If you were going to abondon me why did you even start to talk about that whole trusting you stuff? You're a liar! A damn liar and I hate you so much right now! I really didn't need you to betray me. I already am hurt enough. Just leave me alone and never talk to me again!

[kodz]

You say you were hurt by me ignoring you. How do you think I felt? You do it to me all the time and never really seem to be bothered by it, but when I actually do it to you you get all mad and pissed off at me? If you don't like it, don't do it to me and I won't do it to you, cuz it hurts me just as much if not more than it hurts you.

Nothing seems to be enough for you. I told you I was going to change, put a lot of effort into it, but the moment you thought that something was wrong or weren't satisfied you ran. I know I talk a lot about changing and never really do, but it's really hard when you don't cooperate or bail if I don't completely transform immediately. This is not a one-way street, I deserve to be treated right as well. I won't give up though, not just yet.

[Azure.]

I wish this would just go away. I'm not strong enough for this.

[hocus pocus]

My body aches and I'm exhausted.

[nothereanymore]

I hate moments like these. Watching everything fall around me is really not a pretty sight.

[Kate*]

We started at the same time, she is incredibly unprofessional with the maturity level of a 10-12 year old, yet I'M the one who is getting nearly failed on purpose,threatened, and told that I don't belong in the profession while she moves on no problem. I will NEVER UNDERSTAND THAT

You tell me that I shouldn't be one if I'm going to have a perfectly normal reaction to an incredibly difficult situation, but you can be one no problem and you're already in it. I say that if you're going to tell someone that, you shouldn't be one either. I've had it happen to me which is all the more reason to react that way and it doesn't matter if you know that or not, reactions like yours are the reason why I don't tell people. I seriously hope you learn a lesson about watching what you say.

If she treats her students in ANY way that resembles the way she treated me, I feel sorry for them. Yet another example of someone who threatened me while getting through no problem and acting the complete opposite of acceptable. They both threatened me and treated me like crap and I'M the unprofessional one?! Yeah, I don't think so, try again!

[Kintsukuroi.]

That's it, I don't think I can keep doing this.. I just am not strong enough.

[Chai.]

Why can't people just shut up and mind their own business!!

[THE FAPMAN]

God? Why did you create stupid people? What did the smart people do to you to punish them with the stupid ones? Damn you God.
Because I only see stupid people. Giving birth to more stupid people with stupid ideas, stupid thinking, stupid behaviour and stupid beliefs. And then those stupid people will give birth to even more stupid people. Just being sheeps to the bad people. And the good people always get the wrong side of the barrel.
God, if you dont do some pest control I will start sacrificing people to Satan. Cuz Satan is waaaay cooler.

[kodz]

I know you hate me and you're avoiding and ignoring me on purpose. You said you don't like it when people do it to you, but you still do it to me. I guess that shows what you really feel about me. Now we have to go to prom together, it'll probably be a disaster. At least after you'll finally have no reason to stay.

[Chai.]

So basically there is no problem, you say! Then why are you sad, hurt, annoyed, bitter and all of it! Why don't you just accept something is wrong!!

[Forging Galaxies]

I might as well just die anyway...

[Em.]

I can sense something and I really dont like it.

[Invisible...]

Tired of always being laughed at or made to feel like I'm in the wrong once again. I have feelings too, and I just...can't explain it. It hurts.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I should just be dead, because nothing is going to end till I am buried six feet under.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

This pain will never end for me. I'm meant to suffer.

[Chai.]

Thunder storm, two nights in a row! I hate thunder, I hate storms! And I need sleep!

[Kindred]

Just get out of my life. I fucking hate you.

[Chai.]

Some people are so full of themselves!! Do they realize others exist!

[Kintsukuroi.]

UGH. Shut the fuck up, I get that you want me dead but seriously shut the fuck up. I will be gone soon enough, don't you worry but till then shut your fucking mouth.

[THE FAPMAN]

Dear insomnia, I fucking hate you.
Thats it. Double dose of sleeping pills and a fucking sledgehammer will help.

[kodz]

I hate you so much right now. How could you do this? How could you be so heartless? I thought we had something more, something special, but I guess we didn't. Everything you do just makes me even more mad and hurt. I guess I really didn't find out who you really are.

And yet I still cling to the hope that you'll come back, that things will go back to being good, but I know that will never happen. Things are just too fucked up. Goodbye.

[THE FAPMAN]

Why do I live? Whats the purpose of living?
Whats stopping me from killing myself right now, right here? Nothing...
So why the fuck havent I done it already?

[Kate*]

Well, I moved in for summer school and I WANT MY OLD ROOM BACK, this place SUCKS. I knew I was going to get spoiled in the other room, but this is ridiculous. Unless it becomes completely impossible I will be staying in at least that building, if not that room. UGH. If this class wasn't full of people I knew and I didn't need to meet with him so badly, I wouldn't even be here right now. Between being stuck in this building and having to get up early for a class I don't even NEED I just want to go home. This could've been completely unnecessary.

It's only 15 nights, it's only 15 nights

Somebody had to drop the class, odd one out as usual. I hate my life.