Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

I feel like a terrible person all the damn time.

My dad and his partner didn't work today and I swear his partner's voice grates on my nerves.

[Everglow.]

Thanks for making me feel like crap

[Kate*]

As much as I don't want to be one of these people who never moves on, this was so legitimately Earth-shattering and traumatic that I don't think I'll ever be okay again.

I'm patient, but I'm starting to think someone accidentally forgot to actually publish it.

What the fuck is wrong now?! And why can't you handle it?! This is why we need a break!

This is exactly why I stopped looking for jobs until I hear back from these people. Less than 5 minutes and i have self-harmed and become immediately suicidal. And that's for shit they think I can actually do. Just give me the fucking benefits and I'll never have to go through this shit again. I'm obviously a worthless waste of space/danger to society and it would be better for everyone if I just killed myself.

People annoy me.
I would like to scream.
Um...yeah...sure...whatever.

And, why does this sunday have to be father's day? Don't want to spend time with my brother and his family because his wife is getting on my nerves. She takes advantage of his loyalty and acts entitled.

At least next sunday is book club and I am looking forward to that.

I can't save her. I should be able to and I can't. I'm screaming "don't drown" and she wants to swim deeper.

The ocean is a beautiful, terrifying place. With him it's more terrifying than it is beautiful. Be careful.

[nothereanymore]

Don't get offended when dad gets snippy with you after you just got snippy with me. Double standard having ass high maintenance bitch.

It would be best if I were dead.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Please stop fighting. Dad will make one of you go away forever. I can't have that, it will break me a lot.

[Thinking]

What can be a better timing for me to fell and injured my arm, when I had a piano performance tomorrow?

[Clarent]

hey Poland if you could stop being an economical shithole I'd be super happy please thanks

[Everglow.]

Why do I have to be so damn clumsy? Fell by the pool last week and my ankle is still really painful. So tired of spraining my ankles because I can't just walk like a normal human being.

[Thinking]

So even stretching an octave is a pain, and I am going to perform like crap later

[Thinking]

Anxiety is sky high right now.. waiting for performance is a worse than hell.

Breath!!!

I think I should be dead.
I feel like I deserve to be dead.
I feel like a worthless piece of shit.

[Kate*]

The ONLY thing that will help is sleep and it's way too FUCKING HOT! I have gotten absolutely, zero, but have managed to damage myself instead. Fuck life, I want out. NOW!

Do you not know the difference between them, one of which being that NO ONE with this has become one of those, but some can become the other?!

The second I start to think life might eventually become okay, I get slammed with the reality that it probably won't.

Why do I get the feeling there's something serious you aren't telling me?! Anxiety making me paranoid, or do I just know you that well. Short of an emergency situation we are DOING THIS, no excuses.

[Thinking]

Eventful days => Anxious days => Bad days

Uneventful days => Boring days => Bad days

Today is eventful, and is freaking me out 100%.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Please stop the fighting. It hurts me so much. I don't want to cry again.

[nothereanymore]

Please pull out the box of memories and show me all the cringy shit I did when I was a child. That's exactly what I want right now, while I'm in the throes of struggling with things from my past. Fucking hell.

[Everglow.]

It's too hot for anything. Too tired to move. Wish the heat would disappear.

I am hot. I have a headache. I want to read but I am too tired. Probably should take a short nap but idk...ugh.

[Calaer]

Jordan is leaving Tuesday of this week, and won't be back until Monday of next week for work, and it really bums me out. I hate it when he leaves. It's so lonely here when he is gone.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I hate how I feel. I wanted to cry. It feels like everything is going wrong. Why can't they get along. I really don't get it. What if one gets sent away, who would it be. I don't want to think about it. It breaks my heart so much and just makes me want to cry and makes me so upset. Please get along. You have to.

[nothereanymore]

I feel so sick rn and I feel even worse thinking about what I'm doing this week. Not excited to start work.

[Calaer]

I hate that today is Monday, and I would like to go back to yesterday, pretty please. I'm so not ready for you to leave, or for me to have to start on all the work I have to finish.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I need more sleep!!! I have been so upset with everything going on and I can't sleep. I hope to sleep tonight.

[Everglow.]

It's ok to not like me. I don't much like myself either.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I wish you both would get along. You both go crazy and than dad is yelling to stop and it needs to stop now. I can't take this anymore. It hurts to much.

My head hurts so bad

[nothereanymore]

I'm not a friend to anyone

[.Brittany.]

I am so tired. I hate being so sore and sick.. I need a vacation..

[Mismatched Socks]

There's so much I'm unhappy with but I can't find the motivation to change things.

[Kate*]

Would I be more accepting and indulging of your constant victim shit if I hadn't actually been victimized? Probably not because they let you get away with murder and if I ever acted like that they'd kill me, even though, unlike you, I have just cause.

Here's an idea, her life, she can post about whatever the fuck she wants and talk about it however the fuck she wants. You don't have to watch and you sure as hell don't have to point out how negative she is. Grow up and take some responsibility for yourself instead of attacking someone when you could just avoid them! DUH

Unless thousands of people have unliked my published pieces, the stats are not displaying correctly. Crazy annoying with no idea why.

Apparently, calling out a victim blamer for being an asshole makes me sensitive. Fine, that doesn't change the fact that you're an asshole. Own your shit and grow up!

[Calaer]

I hate that you have to leave on work trips. We miss you when you're gone, and we truly can't wait until you get back.

Please help me.

I am tired of this heat. It's giving me a fucking headache. I have had a headache for two days.

Worried about everything working out. If his parents won't help him out I am going to be so pissed off. My dad's, terribly negligent and abusive father, helped him out when he was dealing with similar issues.

[Kate*]

So much for trying to be active and fix shit. First my therapist leaves, then the psychiatrist is leaving so I'll only see her once after waiting almost 4 months. Finally heard from VR, but I can't do anything for at least a week because of the fucking air conditioner and my God damn grandmother! And last night was another night with literally ZERO fucking sleep! Just kill me. And people who call from work should really use a landline!

I told you everything was pointless and that if you did it I would never recover. And I'm right every fucking time about everything bad.

I'm not unemployed because I don't know how to do a fucking job search or because I'm not trying, and the only problem with my resume is that there's nothing on it. I'm unemployed because I'm impaired across the board and not qualified for shit! I should just die instead. At least the stuff I complain about is unsolvable, legitimate as hell, and I didn't bring any of it on myself.

[Calaer]

I hate that Jordan isn't home. It's annoying, and we miss him dearly.

[Everglow.]

Why does my room attract all of the flying bugs? I hate it.

^ SAME! I hate the bugs.

I really hate bothering Rob, I feel like I am such a nuisance.

[nothereanymore]

Your mood is poisonous. Fuck off with it.