Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

I feel like I would be better off dead. I feel like everyone around me would be better off if I were dead is probably more accurate. I just cause pain and disappointment.

[MWF]

I am tripping. Im not sure if thats good, bad, or neutral, but I took way too much acid.

[MWF]

Somebody send me some good vibes. I'm tripping on acid and I believe myself to be a god.

YOUR God, in case you were wondering.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I'm so tired!!! Why did you jump on me all night and keep me up my little kitten!!!!! I LOVE YOU, but you drive me crazy sometimes when you are jumping on me all night because you want to play and it's time to sleep! Not play time!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm such a worthless excuse for a human being. Someone kill me, please.

[London_grace]

I'm off today! Not myself!

I have no idea why this is bothering me. I can't stand watching unappreciative people get everything they want. The funny thing is, I know all these material things aren't making them happy which is why they seek out more.

[London_grace]

It needs to stop!

[nothereanymore]

Concept: don't get pissy with the people who haven't pissed you off. I'm not perfect but I try not to do bad things and I apologize when I do them. Your attitude sours everything and you know it yet you leave it unchecked.

I am a terrible human being. Never fucking satisfied!

[Kintsukuroi.]

I'm so tired. Didn't get to bed till 2:45 and it's 4:50 now and I can't fall back asleep.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I don't feel well today!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I still don't feel well!

[Kate*]

I could go off (again), but you're never giving up the victim mentality or doing the shit you need to do to help yourself, so I give up. It's not worth the energy anymore.

I feel like a piece of shit. Wish I were dead.

[Lumos.]

I almost tried self harming yesterday at work, like I was looking for something to do it with. what the fuck. I wish I had found something and actually done it. maybe I wouldn't feel as shitty today
also i can't think over the voices today.....

[nothereanymore]

When it happens you're gonna say you didn't see the signs. You're gonna say you thought I was fine. I am suicidal every second of every day and I am not fine.

[Kate*]

I hate not being able to trust them when they tell me my job isn't at risk. Every sign points to getting let go at 90 days no matter how many times they tell me everything is fine.

I think I am getting sick and I am supposed to be hosting book club on sunday. Fuck!

[Markus]

I am so hungry!

[TheAtomicBlade]

iT was a great day. All it takes is being at home for a fight to start. And i'm always the fucking villain

I cannot breath.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I don't feel well.

I don't know why my family has to constantly tell me they love me and make a big deal about me not hugging. Like, I don't want to have to explain that because I was abused I don't like hugs because they make me feel trapped and I don't want to say that saying I love you is hard because love is a really complicated concept. Just leave me the fuck alone.

[Lumos.]

It's supposed to be a good day and yet my mental illness figures out a way to get into my head. why do I want to die again?

[Kate*]

Why did you tell them that A: I need new glasses, and B: That you're helping us pay for them? Do you just have no life? Maybe I didn't want anyone to know I needed them, not because I'm ashamed, but just because maybe it's none of their fucking business! This is why I asked her not to tell you I'm in therapy. Because you can't keep your mouth shut!

How is it that despite being disabled and legitimately victimized, you're still always more of a "victim" than I am or anyone else?

YOU are 100% to blame for your behavior towards me and the shit that came flying out of your mouth. By your own admission, I can't "make" you do or say anything. You are to blame for my damage, I am responsible for healing my damage. That doesn't mean that what you did was okay and it doesn't mean that I deserved it!

My vision and glaucoma will NEVER get better! It would REALLY help if people understood this and STOPPED ASKING!

Will things ever change? I am tired of being the person I am. I have a crappy personality, and I don't care what compliments people praise me with. When I am in social situations, I keep my head down and eyes on my phone because I have no idea what the hell will come out of my mouth.

I don't like the person I am and wish there was a reset button.

[Markus]

Why have you became like that! So scary and you feel more and more like a stranger to me.

[London_grace]

Please don't do this!! I will not be able to handle it!

[MWF]

God, my best friend's so dumb... His wife might be pregnant and he's trying to justify her smoking weed during pregnancy. He's pretending he knows more than the doctors and that they're all in some stupid conspiracy to make sure people don't smoke weed.

I am fucking tired of being sick!

[TheAtomicBlade]

I dont know why but I am feeling like shit
And I hate myself atm

[Lumos.]

It's too early to be awake.
I hate feeling like I'm getting worse. It feels like impending doom. I don't want to go to a hospital again....

I feel weird. I feel like all I want to do is curl into myself and sleep the day away.

[Markus]

I really want to be finished and done with this mandatory military conscription.

[nothereanymore]

I can't believe nobody sees it

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I don't feel well.

[Kate*]

I sleep WAY too late on my days off and then I'm working exhausted. I hate being a night owl working morning shifts. Would LOVE to negotiate since she keeps doing my work anyway.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm too ugly and fat for any guy to like me. I'll be single for the rest of my life. Forever alone.

What's the point of being alive if no one wants you around?

[Calaer]

I hate the fact that I'm stuck in this situation, and there really isn't anything I can do about it other than let things ride out and figure them out as we go. Lets hope that things start to ease up and get easier, because I don't want to have to go back to the doctor with all these problems.