Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

I just need to survive through jury duty, just get me to the second week of December. You know what, Just get me to 2018. The rest of this year is going to suck.

[Rivière]

I don't know what the people below are doing but they're thundering around like baby elephants. Literally feels like they're stomping every time they walk, or do anything.

I hate feeling this way, this feeling of emptiness and hopelessness.

[nothereanymore]

Been on Percocet and sleeping the day away for the last week, no wonder I'm not depressed. Wish I could live like this.

So. Much. Anger.

I am really struggling with thoughts on hurting myself. I don't think I am at the point of acting on them quite yet but I am at the point where the smallest of things have the chance of leading to that changing.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I deserve to be punished.....

I’m falling to pieces.

I don’t want to go to the hospital.

I feel like a piece of shit.

I feel so damn miserable.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

No one cares about me. I'm a worthless person. I'm ugly and disgusting. What guy in their right mind would ever find me attractive?

[Fanatic]

I'm tired of feeling left out and feeling second. Is there no one who sees me as important or worth cared for? This is why people are disgusting. Because when they feel like they are satisfied, they throw you away and abandon you for someone else. Because they dont see you as good enough. People like that are to be blamed and feel a shame of themselves.

“I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed”

As a kid, I thought that line was so stupid; now I get it. I held onto my first kiss for 19 years, I was content holding onto it for longer, but then he came into my life and all my plans changed. I remember crying after he kissed me, I knew I should be excited, but I was hurting. I cried a lot due to our physical relationship. Why did that not send up red flags sooner? I loved his personality, his mind, his words, but I wasn’t prepared for a physical relationship like he wanted. The first kiss pulled me in too deep to walk away, even though I knew I should. So many kisses followed and I hate myself for not stopping them. I convinced myself I wanted a somewhat physical relationship, but I knew that that wasn’t really true. I let him go further than I wanted, I stopped saying “no.” It isn’t his fault if I stopped saying no, so this all falls back on me.

I didn’t really want you to kiss me that night, but I acted like I was excited. I’m so sorry.

[Everglow.]

Absolutely disgusting that you'd turn up to the funeral high. You deserve to have to get the bus home..i would have kicked you out of my car too.

I feel absolutely broken

[Kate*]

I was getting training to do it for real, I don't know what the fuck you were doing. If anyone is an unlicensed expert, it's ME. I no longer feel the need to throw my knowledge around. You make yourself sound very arrogant and egotistical right now. My advice was as good as yours without discussing how much I know about helping people who she ISN'T talking about! Just shut up

I feel like my dreams and goals are in reach and yet so damn far off

[nothereanymore]

I'm a horrible child. Horrible. Just awful. Shameful. I know I should feel guilty for asking you to drive me someplace. How rude of me.

You're a fucking prick. If you hate providing for your family then fuck off and be alone, stingy ass rude ass negative Nancy ass fuckin dumb uncompassionate old man.

I fucking hate my dreams sometimes.

[Mismatched Socks]

I feel so empty and lost.

I do not know why I hate myself so much

[Kate*]

I officially hate people and it's only going to get worse. You know that I know literally NOTHING! So, why are you giving me afternoon shifts including weekends?!

Most of my issues are training-related, not disability-related. Why don't you teach me stuff before you expect me to know it. Knowing what they're going to ask me for does me ZERO good if I don't know where you put it and can't recognize a box of it when I see one!!!! You are my more experienced coworker, not my boss.

[London_grace]

I'm feeling off today.

I feel like such a piece of shit.
I feel so damn emotional and uncertain all the damn time
Wish I were dead and I hate myself for that.

[nothereanymore]

Why are you both so mean

Oh, nooooo. That was not triggering at all!!!! ��

[Kate*]

I am really hoping this was just a bad day or I'm in a downswing and that I don't really suck at my job, but I know that I kind of do. I'll have to see if I have my 90 day review somewhere. Could go either way.

Don't want to go to work. At least tomorrow I can sleep

I’m angry and I don’t know why.

[Kate*]

You need to back the fuck off of your ADULT STEPSON. He's disabled, that doesn't mean you treat him like a teenager!
And in case you haven't figured it out yet, HE'S REBELLING, I can't imagine why...

The more I think about you asking how long my shift was, the more I think I'm in trouble with you. Anxiety is ridiculous. If you need me for something, you'll tell me or you would've waited for me and told me before I left.

[London_grace]

Today's an okay day!

[Calaer]

I hate all of these weather changes. I wish that It would just stay cold. I'm so ready for snow!!!

You've got to be kidding me

[KimmyKitty]

For fucks sakes, I hate when people are so far in denial that they are blowing smoke up their own asses. >_>

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I think something is seriously wrong with me.....

Wtf is the point?

[nothereanymore]

I want to die. Rape culture is enough to make me want to leave this world.

I feel disgusting.
I feel myself wanting to self sabotage.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Don't you dare say you care when you don't. No one cares about me.

A woman (or man) deciding to not have children isn't selfish. In my opinion, it's more fucking selfish for someone to have a child that they don't really want just because people expect them too.

Like, no every single person has the desire or emotional capacity to deal with raising a child 24/7.

Yes, I do, actually want children one day but I am also at a place where I need to think really hard about the impact it will have on my emotional well-being. No, I can't just have a baby and not worry about it. People with certain mental health issues have a higher tendency to develop Postpartum Depression so WHEN/IF I decide to try for a baby...I am going to have to discuss it with my psychiatrist so that I can work up a way to handle it IF I have to handle it.

[Calaer]

I hate that you treat me the way you do. You clearly don't deserve to have us in your life.

I hate feeling bloated, I hate having eaten too much. Why did I do that?