Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Celyn]

Headache

My name was attached to the email and you still got it wrong.

[TheAtomicBlade]

I just want to hurt myself or something

I just want to die already

[nothereanymore]

I feel awful

[Kate*]

Thank God it's a short afternoon shift tomorrow. Next week will suck, but maybe I can convince them to leave my schedule as is except for weekends. or overnights in place of weekends or something. I love getting out before insanity hits.

[MWF]

Switching back and forth between happiness and wanting to give up on school. All the while never sleeping...
I'm in so over my head right now.

I was feeling so great about this week, and then the cold comes along! So typical, I know I need to take better care of myself. Eat appropriately and take my meds. Oh, and my counselor cancelled our meeting. Too much to hope for, I knew it.

I hate that numbers control my life. My journal is full of numbers and I hate the satisfaction I have every time I write a low number.

I hate how I get a cold on the week I was feeling so optimistic about!

I locked myself out of the house. That's pretty cool. I've almost gone two years without doing so.

Dissociation sucks and it's embarrassing to say that's what happened so I lied and said I thought I had the keys in my hand.

Everything is going wrong with my parents.

[Calaer]

I hate the way you treat her. I hope you get exactly what you deserve very soon.

[Kate*]

Considering that no one had actually taught me anything, including you, how the fuck was I supposed to know to ask that?! Stop trying to pass the blame on to the students for your lack of teaching!

I don’t want to die, but the eating disorder does.

The girl I wanted to date is dating someone else now. She is monogamous.

Fuck. This is what I get for hiding from people for a month. Now one of the first people I’ve really connected with in a long time is gone.

Good job, Jordan. Good job.

[Calaer]

I hate this weather!!!! Give us snow. No more rainy cold days. Dx

I hate myself and want to die

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Stop asking me what's wrong. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm fine. I'm not allowed to have problems.

[nothereanymore]

Just because I’m SUPPOSED to be able to walk in the boot doesn’t mean I actually CAN so don’t fool yourselves into thinking I’m mobile now and don’t still need help.

[Kate*]

After tomorrow, it's 10 days of legitimate insanity and then jury duty and then hopefully somewhat back to normal, but probably won't be able to breathe until the new year.

Today, I looked in the mirror and I saw someone sickly looking back at me. How have I gotten this far without anything noticing?

[Calaer]

I wish it would snow already. Rain is all that's being called for and it's so annoying. I'm dying for snow.

[Kate*]

I wish I never had to work this shift again! Just trying to survive. 4 more days and then 2 days off!!!! Of course I have to spend one of them with HER and I REALLY don't want to, especially after working and dealing with all of that for so long. I don't even know what I got to today. I'm doing the best I can.

I hate everyone and everything right now

[Lionheart]

I'm so fucking tired and its all your fault for being so damn loud eventhough you knew i was trying to sleep because I have to get up at 4 am

[Everglow.]

Hate how much my anxiety still gets to me. I've made so much progress but the thought of getting a tube alone has made me cancel going out with work for Christmas dinner. How pathetic.

I thought once I reached X lbs, I’d be beautiful. But here I am, at X lbs, and I just look sick. I look sick, I feel sick. I don’t want to do this anymore.

I hate myself.

[Kate*]

She needs to work some fucking weekends!!!! I've worked BOTH days of EVERY one for over 3 MONTHS She's worked 3 Saturdays in that time and only because she wants to go full-time!
And she gets the overnights, which I would LOVE. Come on!

In and out as quickly and painlessly as possible, that's all I want and my sanity depends on it

Don't let that happen at work, please no.

[Calaer]

I'm so not looking forward to dealing with my birth mother's family again. They are all two faced idiots. I'm so tired of everything that has to do with them. All they want to do is to ruin things for you. They love to pick apart your happiness and your success because they aren't happy or successful. It's so stressful and it's always a dreading moment for me. I'm in hopes I'm not going to end up running in to them this holiday season, but it's un-telling if I can actually get away with it or not.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

It doesn't get any better. It actually gets so much worse.

I don't know how much I can keep doing this.

Irresponsible pet owners frustrate me especially when my cats are involved.

You aren't supposed to use glass ornaments if you have cats because cats have a tendency to play with the tree. You won't anchor the tree to the wall so the tree might fall over and since you got glass ornaments they could break and cause internal and external injuries.

If you absolutely have to use glass ornaments they shouldn't be at the bottom of the tree..which yours are...and the tree should be anchored to the wall...

All of which you refuse to do because ... it doesn't look good. Who cares if it doesn't look good if an animal could get hurt? There are ways to safely have glass ornaments and you refuse to do it.

You annoy the fuck out of me. Just gotta bear a little while longer.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I can't wait to move out, but it'll be awhile before I can move out.

[Kate*]

When I'm ready to start cursing customers out, it's time for my break. How hard is it to stay the fuck out of my way?! I'm doing my job damn it!

I feel so gross and so worthless.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
I get to go pick something up at the post office and I have something coming to me on Wednesday. It's something I have been wanting for ages too!

[Starseeker]

It's been going on for a year. I can't refrain from treating school and my classmates with contempt. All they do is sit inside the coursebooks and they can't see the world outside of school. I can't imagine going there for the next three years.

[Everglow.]

Starting to hate myself again. The more I think about how alone in going to be in the future the less i want to be there.