Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Everglow.]

I get paid £2 less per hour than you, but I work two days of overtime every week on top of voluntary work, plus driving lessons, plus days off. You work fuck all every week and pay a tonne for a car you could never afford. No wonder you're skint. Stop complaining and self pittying - I have no sympathy for you because you have no self control. The only reason you can't afford to live is because you refuse to work more than 18 hours a week and can't keep control of your outgoings. It isn't rocket science. Don't be so lazy and then complain to me you're tired and broke. I'M tired - but I'm not quite as broke because I work bloody hard. You're doing my absolute head in.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

All I do is disappoint people. I'm a failure and a burden. I should just do everyone a favor and kill myself.....

I messed up and said the wrong thing.

Of course you fall asleep in her room. There’s specific reasons I wanted to do this tonight, dammit, and you’re kind of ruining the night she and I had planned.

[Kate*]

It's not a day off when I have to deal with you.

I'm angry but also hurt.
Please let me sleep, wake refreshed and get to the library. I want that book.

[Kate*]

Second day in a row that I'm not hungry for no reason.

Cancelled book club and feel relieved.

I think the discussion would have ended up frustrating me because the topic of rape culture was likely going to come up and... I just can't handle discussong that shit right now.

Not because I don't believe it exists but because it hits too close to home and I don't want anymore memories..

Maybe I'll end up making it for April.

[Everglow.]

Someone is literally opening the door for me to get a new job and I'm too busy worrying that I'm overstepping the mark to apply for it yet.

[Kate*]

Whoever came up with this idea can give up their weekends to pick up the slack that will now drown me and whoever decided not to tell me can help! And there's no way in hell I'm coming in on Saturday. It's my first weekend day off ever, I requested it over a month in advance, and it's not my fault she's not there anymore!

[Everglow.]

People keep letting me down.
So close to giving up.

This week has barely begun and I am dreading it. I'll get through it but I have so many things to do that I don't want to. The main one being ill likely have to go siting social security... And if it was as bad as last time... Idk

I don’t want to be fat anymore. Why did I start eating again? Why did I stop working out??? I’m going back. I can’t be this fat. The scale cannot show this number anymore. I’m not safe at this weight, I’m not lovable at this weight. I have to be thin, I need to be thin.

[Lunar]

I hate that you treat me the way you do. I thought we were friends, but apparently I was wrong.

i shouldn't have eaten i shouldn't have eaten i shouldn't have eaten.

she's wrong, she has to be wrong. these symptoms aren't a problem and if you go to the ER then they'll make you fatter than you already are. it's not an emergency and the symptoms won't get worse. you're fine, you're fine, you're fine.

[Kate*]

It's not my fault that the only copy of the necessary form available is "expired." You should've made another one before then. If there's no time limit to apply in the first place, then you shouldn't hold anything against me.

What's the point, honestly. I try hard and it never makes a difference. I just feel kind of like .. why do I try in life.

I'll get through it. There are a few ways to do so .. I just have to figure it out.

I am also irritated with my family. There is always a reason to not include me ... now apparently the reason is because I am female. So, that's pretty fucking awesome.

[nothereanymore]

What. A fucking. Waste. Of space. I am.

[Everglow.]

Another day at work. The anxiety as I walked towards the shop today isn't right. And I've never felt so hesitant to call and say I'm here. It's draining the life out of me I can't take it.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm absolutely sick and tired of being bullied by this family. I'm sick and tired of being walked over. God forbid I try to stand up for myself, I get bitched at.

[Silvan]

Geez I'm so salty. Every fucking metal band I listen to is going to tour Europe during upcoming months. Well, Europe? Let's just skip one not-so-fucking-small country in the middle of the continent! Like what the fuck? They're playing in the Czech Republic, the Ukraine, Russia, why won't they come to a
one
single
city
in my country? Take Germany, HALF of the bands' tours are in Germany. Fucking HALF! What the hell! Instead of visiting one or two cities in most countries in Europe they pick freaking Germany for like seven cities? I could arrange a trip to every part of my country, reeeally, but staying anywhere else for a few days is just not for my pocket people. I could travel to Germany 'cos it's relatively close but if Germany wasn't so fucking expensive for us geezus? I can understand that with current government here it's worse but still there are like people who don't support it and are genuine metal fans who just want to listen to some good freaking music? shit it's not even one single band. not. one. jesus.

[Lunar]

I really was hoping that today was going to be prettier outside. Such a shame. We wanted to do some gardening.

So you kick me out of my spot in her room because you’re “tired” but then when I go use the bathroom on my way to bed you’re still up? I mean the lights are on and everything; it’s like you didn’t even try. So next time you’re sooooo sleepy I’m going to remind you of this, you fucking cunt. Teach you to boot me out of my comfort zone when really you just want my spot. Cow.

[TraitorBaby]

GODDAMMNIT FOCUS.
get off of this site and focus.
And go play your music...this is what you want but your so scared of what would happen if you try...but what if you don't? Don't let them keep you here. Please.

[Fanatic]

Why the fuck did you keep talking to me and considered me a friend?! Did you use me because you thought I could solve all your issues and to vent...? Well if thats all it is then goodbye forever. But once you are out of my life, I will die...

[MWF]

This world just got a lot less safe.
John Bolton. Trump's new national security adviser, warmongering maniac.

[Kate*]

I'm officially at my wits end. Not only are you claiming AGAIN that you don't have the documentation, but you NEVER had it late to begin with. You now have 6 of my pay stubs, when 2 is enough. Find your fucking mail and do your Goddamn job! It's NOT that fucking hard.

[Fanatic]

I'm totally feeling dead inside... I don't know what I'm doing here. I just want to die in a hole. I hate people. I hate life. I want to be gone from this painful place.

[Kintsukuroi.]

My dog suddenly was yelping when we would touch her and sitting/walking really funny. We rushed her to the vet and they did blood work and tests to rule out twisted gut or anything else. Now she’s at home while we wait for the results. Frick this week.

It's interesting when everything is put into perspective.

[London_grace]

Tired today! Not sleeping well!

[nothereanymore]

I wonder if my parents know that what they say keeps me up at night.
yeah, your brother molested you, but he’s your brother. be nice to him.
...he’s not my brother he’s my fucking abuser you dumb fucking rape culture brainwashed bitch

Oh, hey anxiety, how are you doing?
It seems like you have every intention of making my life miserable.
That's cool since I am so damn used to it.
I have been needing you to come back in my life and ruin things
I am probably going to take my medication soon which will help me sleep until my body adjusts. The psych will probably want to up it when I go back.
I think I should probably be hospitalized but I am trying to get this worked out before that ... if that happens I'll be mostly screwed so there is that.
I need to keep busy but I need my hypomania or mania to stop too.

[Kintsukuroi.]

The wake up every damn 20-40 minutes is irritating but I love you. I just want to figure out what’s wrong.

For God's sake, let's plan a get together for Easter a week before. I get that spontaneity works for you all but ... I hate having to interact and I feel like I have to when you are all here. If I do and he doesn't you all act like he's weird OR being an asshole.

Him and I feel the same way about you, mostly. He won't say a ton because you are my family and he doesn't want to disrespect you all. We agree that it's stupid you think he has to interact all the time especially when you throw these random gatherings. I used to hate it too but I went because I was worried about making you all upset or something.

I don't care as much now and he helped me with that...but because I don't care as much you all take it to mean he's had a bad influence.

God dang it, I don't want to deal with this next week.

[nothereanymore]

I have lost so much and gained so litte

[Tigereyes]

Two main thoughts:
What the fuck even was last night?
And fuck recovery.

[Lunar]

I feel like we are going through a nasty divorce and you are dragging our kids though it. I know how things were with you and Dad, and you are doing the exact same thing with me and Mamaw. Just do us all a favor and go away. You say it over and over yourself, you don't like any of us. Just screw off.

[Celyn]

Laptop charger broke -_-

I feel like you are never there when I need you. I understand not being on Facebook, but what about the text messages?