Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Tigereyes]

Someone help me.. please.

[Tigereyes]

Relapse is better than dealing with all this shit. Unfortunately, money is part of the problem so I need to be careful about relapse

That article was so triggering and haunting, and I hate that I can relate to it in some ways.

Taking this step doesn't mean I'm committing to taking the job.

It's a day off of work.

[Rivière]

For god sake shut up with that bloody music! Stop being on the phone at -12 in the morning, and stop bloody well thumping around from 5 to 6 in the morning until half 8!

You're quite honestly getting right up my nose!

I was so depressed last night that I forgot school started. I have an assignment due tomorrow so I'll probably stay up late doing it.

[Tigereyes]

That feeling when too much is too horribly wrong that there's no point in trying to explain it because it's too much to explain, so you just sit alone in the darkness and silence, hoping that evenually you'll stop crying enough to sleep, until you remember that it's a night you wouldn't get much sleep anyway.

I'm so tired of this life.

I need a break from life but no amount of time will be enough.

Oddly enough I'm excited to go home and work on my homework. Go figure.

[Tigereyes]

My student loan debt will be forgiven if I die.. maybe suicide is the answer after all.

You're a bitch

[Silvan]

I'm supposed to enjoy myself. I'm supposed to fucking enjoy myself. Yet somehow a perspective of spending eight hours in the car staring blankly at the road because I can't do anything or I'll puke doesn't appeal to me. And later, the perspective of spending a week in the middle of nowhere isn't much better, I wonder why.
But I really wanted to go, so what the fuck happened? It's always the bloody same!!!

[Fanatic]

Going through a horrible relapse of extreme mood swings and I feel like I cant control them. Suicidal one minute, happy another, irritable and anxious another, etc. I might look fine on the outside but my mind is a mess. Everyone tells me im fine and not to worry. As if I feel fine and not just masking my insecures. As if it is a big deal right? Yeah right. All bullshit lies. I want someone to notice but no one ever does. Would anyone care if I died then? Or even notice I'm gone?

[Everglow.]

Oh god haven't slept and I feel so disgusting in this new uniform i hope they don't mention the trousers

I'm worthless

[Everglow.]

Nobody is listening to me. I can't just not be sad. Why don't any of you listen to me.

It's not worth it to be upset.

[Kate*]

I kind of don't want to go to work tomorrow, but it's only 5 hours and then I'm off for 2 days. If it's still this bad out tomorrow, I might have to call off anyway.

There's about an 80% chance that I'm not going in tomorrow, but that means calling off and phone calls make me nervous. Plus they want at least 3 hours notice, so I'll have to get up early and decide.

[Everglow.]

It's 2am and I'm sitting in bed crying again. I don't know what to do I'm so lost

I'm overwhelmed

[Kate*]

God, you hit the wrong button ONE TIME and people freak the fuck out! I'm tempted to give up on humanity.

[Silvan]

Wow life, are you fucking serious? The fact that I'm lonely af doesn't mean I'm supposed to be attracted to basically everyone, like w h a t

Tomorrow the trip ends which sucks

[Fanatic]

The more time goes by, the more I feel alone in my pain. There’s no one I know who understands my pain of no longer wanting to live. I feel like I’m suffering alone in everything again. Things haven’t changed at all. I want everything to end..

I feel unimportant

[MWF]

Oh my fucking God. My little brother from Big Brothers Big Sisters posted a live rape video on Facebook. I have never been so ashamed of anyone in my entire life.

I'm ready.
I'm feeling like I can't do this.

Wish this feeling would go away.

It hurts so much

[nothereanymore]

Peace is just too much to ask for. I literally cannot find it anywhere.

[Silvan]

All of it has become really tangled up now. I hope this is the way towards improvement. Please, give me patience. I will have it all sorted out if I'm patient; I will be ready for everything if I'm patient; I won't be so restless if I'm patient.

I want to go home but at least it's Wednesday and there's only 2 days left of the week.

Another day of feeling like crap

[Everglow.]

Can't help but notice that when people I know are sad everyone make a real effort to help and reassure them but when it's me it gets brushed aside.

I'm worthless.

Please wake up.

Please let the thoughts stop

If I could ditch today I would.

I'm feeling so anxious and I have 4 and a half hours left and then I have class.

Don't want to keep going.

[Everglow.]

The thought of work is making me anxious. I hate this so much.

I don't feel like I'm good enough.
Don't feel like I can handle this stress.
Want to die. Want to die. Want to die.

My anxiety just got really bad and I feel like I'm going to break