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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"

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Re: Screaming thread. - June 22nd 2020, 03:54 PM

If I'm denied this too, I'm 99% sure I'm going to kill myself.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 22nd 2020, 05:03 PM

I am really frustrated with myself


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 22nd 2020, 05:35 PM

Yep it's over. Fuck my life.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 22nd 2020, 11:26 PM

Why do you have to spend so much time with her? I am moving out in a month just so she can move in. You'll be with her all the fucking time. I'm just pathetically trying to soak up what joy I can before we don't see each other as often anymore. Can you blame me for that?



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Re: Screaming thread. - June 23rd 2020, 11:43 AM

Less than 10 hours until my decision is irreverible...


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 23rd 2020, 10:07 PM

It's done. No going back.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 23rd 2020, 11:28 PM

Why can't I figure out how to do this?!


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 25th 2020, 12:12 PM

That was too much.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 25th 2020, 04:24 PM

Suicide is my only option. I'm making plans. It's too late.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 25th 2020, 11:34 PM

It's stupid to be jealous of the fact that you respond and talk more to others than me. Of course you would have more in common and be closer to some and not others. And you say all the time that you're the worst texter, so I know not to expect you to answer. But, occasional acknowledgement would be nice, so at least I know you see what I'm saying to you.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 26th 2020, 01:38 PM

My fucking $4000/month meds got lost too. Cool.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 26th 2020, 04:14 PM

It won't get better. I can't go on. I don't want to go on. I just have to make sure I don't fail.

It may be a permenant solution, but these are actually permenant problems.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 26th 2020, 06:07 PM

ANNND just drove my partner to the ER.

They were denied both treatment for the severe pain and further testing. So we wasted time, money, and risked exposure to COVID for nothing.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 27th 2020, 01:17 AM

The correct answer to that question was “yes.”



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Re: Screaming thread. - June 27th 2020, 09:02 PM

My body quit on me again.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 28th 2020, 03:35 AM

I've eaten nothing but crap today.

You are literally the only one in there who cares about that, STOP talking about it! See, you even annoyed him, and it's really hard to piss him off.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 28th 2020, 02:37 PM

Body already crashing for day. I've been awake less than 3 hours today. So much to do. Tomorrow won't be better.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 28th 2020, 04:47 PM

I cant take it anymore. Too sick adn tired literrally. Cant afford to pay anyone to help.

Too exhausted to care for myself. Too bad there's no one to help.

If only rest would help.

I'm too disabled to fight this alone. Just end it. Pleazw.

Falling on my face from not havign energy to get up and now being stuck oj the ground is normal, rivht? The heaviness in my limbs must be depression.


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Re: Screaming thread. - June 28th 2020, 09:42 PM

I forgot your birthday. I didn't look at the calendar to remember. I'm so sorry. I hope you know I haven't forgotten you, and you've been on my mind so much. I miss you.



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Re: Screaming thread. - June 29th 2020, 06:36 AM

I hope I'm not busy like this all the time.


   
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Re: Screaming thread. - June 29th 2020, 11:08 PM

Life is suffering. Nothing more.

Why is there so much bullshit about suicide being a permanent solution to temporary problems? Because some damn problems ARE fucking permanent! My chronic illness is permanent! My debt might as well be permanent! Yeah, there are tenporary MAJOR problems too, like being fucking high risk during a fucking pandemic and having to quit my job in the middle of said pandemic to not die. But the trauma from the job and all my other traumas? Also fucking permanent!


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 1st 2020, 12:30 AM

Why does everything have to keep getting worse?? I can't take it anymore. I can't fucking take it. I can't do it anymore. It's not worth staying alive for this. I can't. The pain is just too much and it'll never get better. No hope. Only pain and suffering and fear. It's time to go. One reason to hold on isn't enough when there's thousands of things so horribly wrong. Next time I get the chance, I might actually take it. I just have to make sure I don't fail. I don't want to survive an attempt.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 1st 2020, 01:11 PM

Why shoudn't I end it?

I can't anymore. This may be goodbye. I'm sorry I'm not strong enough.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 1st 2020, 03:40 PM

I feel like I cant breathe again.

Also, work sent me a package with 10 face masks and a bottle of hand gel in it. Like that makes up for the fact I'm surrounded by people all day and not allowed to ask anyone to queue outside, and I'm not allowed to shut the door so that I can limit how many people are in store. Like cool it's really nice you've sent me these items, thanks, but what about the rest? That wont protect me from the 8 people I have surrounding the desk when I'm the only one in and we're not temperature checking or symptom checking every single person who enters. How the hell is that going to help me? I'm so angry with this company right now.



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Re: Screaming thread. - July 3rd 2020, 06:54 AM

I hope I can get it all done in time.



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Re: Screaming thread. - July 3rd 2020, 05:05 PM

I can't survive this. I will kill myself if this fails.

Yeah no, this already is too much. I might not wait to see how it turns out. I don't want to know.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 4th 2020, 01:11 AM

Unbearable pain


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 4th 2020, 12:38 PM

I don't want to die. I want the pain to stop. But it never will. So goodbye is the only way. I'm replaceable anyway.

I think I've lost the will to live this time. I'm calmly miserable and hopeless. Ready to go. People only care if I stay alive or not, not about my quality of life. I don't even want drugs because even they wouldn't kill this pain that's so heavy and deeply rooted inside. I just want it to end. I don't care how. Just that it does, and soon.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 4th 2020, 05:56 PM

It may not have been your job to encourage me, but that doesn't mean it was your job to break me. Being treated like I deserve for the first time in my life has shown me just how fucked up every other interaction was.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 5th 2020, 10:55 AM

I hope tomorrow never comes.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 6th 2020, 03:40 AM

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Re: Screaming thread. - July 6th 2020, 09:37 AM

Do these people have an upper grade limit of 60% or something? How can you give me 60% and then offer me 72 words of feedback suggesting that the only improvement you could think of was to include sections in it? Are you trying to tell me I could have had an extra 40% added to my grade if only I'd included sub-headings? This whole stupid degree has been a waste of a year of my life and £10,000. I'm absolutely fuming especially considering I was actually PROUD of this essay for a change. How can you say this is constructive feedback? How the hell am I meant to know what to do better?



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Re: Screaming thread. - July 6th 2020, 12:37 PM

Unfortunately, today is the "tomorrow" I have dreaded. This will not end well. Time to finalize my plan to escape forever.

I'm not going to make it.

I'm sorry..

It's not possible for this to be real. I must convince myself that this is just a nightmare and I'll wake up soon.

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Re: Screaming thread. - July 7th 2020, 07:22 PM

Can I please just hurry up and die already

Well damn I fucked up even worse

No one can handle my problems. Then how the fuck am I supposed to, especially without support????

Was told to go have breakdowns somewhere else. Don't talk about it or show that I am suffering. Yeah, not likely I'll survive much longer.


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Re: Screaming thread. - July 7th 2020, 08:11 PM

I know I shouldn't ignore this any longer but I don't want to bring it up to anyone. I don't want them to say I am "overreacting." Lots of times when I go to a doctor or the ER and there's nothing wrong with my vitals or whatnot they kind of imply that it's "in my head." I don't want that to happen again.



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Re: Screaming thread. - July 8th 2020, 11:03 AM

Guess what, today's no better. What a shock. It's almost like regardless of what I do or don't do, my life keeps falling apart.

I feel like my heart is broken and so sick to my stomach. For a week and a half.

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