Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Butterscotch.]

Am tired of this lousy weather.

[Dawn.]

I'm really hoping things can get better.

[Butterscotch.]

I woke up this morning thinking it was Monday but nope, it's Sunday.

[Butterscotch.]

Why do women have to tear each other down? Whatever happened to solidarity?

[Kate*]

I FINALLY got it all sorted out, so OF COURSE you would CHANGE yours! I'm asking nicely for you to put mine back. Then I ask not so nicely, then I just call off. And, even if you say that wasn't "official" you don't have to know that I gave them the original one to believe they got theirs done first since yours was late. It just looks like you switched us, and you have plenty of options to change it back.

So, I'm either switching 2 shifts with somebody, or I'm giving it up. Because I'd rather be there, and I'm not torturing myself because you're an asshole; no matter how good the money is.

I want that to mean something it doesn't. I have to keep myself from getting excited over something that doesn't exist. And I feel bad bugging you with it, but you keep responding.

[Kate*]

It's almost guaranteed that you'll change your mind, or you lied to me, or you meant something else. You really shouldn't say things in writing if I can figure out within seconds of looking at the schedule that they're not going to happen that way. Maybe I'll get lucky and she'll go in too. Or maybe at least one of them won't be there, and that's why I can go in. But, luckily I've prepared myself, and I wanted to talk to you about it anyway.

[Dawn.]

I hate not being even stronger.

[Soda_Voxel]

I just don't fit in no matter where I go

[Soda_Voxel]

Is everything going to hurt like this forever

[Kate*]

I'd say I'll just be the better person/employee and let things play out until I have her job. But, the last time I said that, it DIDN'T HAPPEN

We're being visited tomorrow. If he's still there when I start (which he'll probably be gone), I'd LOVE to talk to him. Your priorities need adjusting, her management needs work, and the attitude frome these people needs snuffed out.

[Dawn.]

Let's hope it comes sooner rather than later.

[Dawn.]

I don't want to feel like this anymore. It's getting too much.

[Butterscotch.]

Getting approved for this feels like it's taking forever. Still dreaming of moving to the big city by fifty.

[Kate*]

All the more reason I would love for this to work out. I was told they'd be "rare" but they're 1/2 or 2/3 of my shifts. And, I hesitate to adjust availability unless I know for sure he can cover the slack (and I don't have that right now)

And, in my defense, I got the shift covered, and he agreed to pick it up on what I didn't realize was his day off. The money is good, but I don't want to stay if things don't change; and I'm not sure they will.

And, now my brain is beating me up, and as much as it's not my favorite manager's job to be my therapist, he does a good job; and I probably won't even see him tomorrow

[Soda_Voxel]

It really seems like everything I try just ends in failure. I feel like I'm cursed. Why does everything go wrong, only for me?

[Dawn.]

I wish I was more stronger.

[Dawn.]

I wish I didn't have to deal with this...

[Kate*]

Well, yesterday's shift was a fucking nightmare, maybe tomorrow will be better. But, promotion is seeming less likely by the day. Giving my brain all the more reason to fucking destroy me. And, my best bet for trying to improve things at least a little is to do nothing for now, and hope for an opportunity that may never come.

"You never know." But, I DO know, because it's already happened at least twice, and I was right about doing everything and none of it well enough. So, I do know, it's NOT happening, and I can't afford to be stagnant if there's no chance for advancement! Not to mention, you care more about your own promotion than keeping your ass in your own store, and working the schedule YOU wrote for YOURSELF.

[Dawn.]

I don't know why I'm like this...

[Dawn.]

I'm hoping to get past this quickly...

[Dawn.]

I really am trying...

[Kate*]

So, yeah, you tell me to be patient, and that I'm doing a great job. But, also that she isn't getting promoted over me when it's blatantly obvious, and that he doesn't have it in his character to screw me over when he's done what he wants from day 1, and given me constant excuses. But, what else are you supposed to say? It's not like you can admit anything else to my face