Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

I wish I didn't have anxiety

[Tigereyes]

This university job is LITERALLY about to be the death of me. They're making high risk people go back to work to die.

[Dawn.]

I wish I had said something differently.

[Dawn.]

I love how people don't understand.

[Odyne]

I can't sleep.

[Tigereyes]

I am fucking terrified of all the few possible outcomes. And I SHOULD be.

[Odyne]

Im so sleepy and tired.
I cant sleep - too much chaos in my head.

[Tigereyes]

There's another crisis at hand. I don't know what specifically it is yet. Today is already too much and more has yet to come. I've barely been awake half an hour, and today is too much.

"She's dead."

[Odyne]

Just cant stop crying..

[Dawn.]

I wish she would just understand.

[Dawn.]

I just want to get away for a bit just to not have to deal with these issues.

[Dawn.]

Hopefully something positive will come out of this.

[Rivière]

I feel really miserable.

[Dawn.]

I wish I did all of these things sooner.

[Dawn.]

I hate having gastro.

Everything is triggering my anxiety

[Dawn.]

I'm sick of having my job applications be rejected.

[Tigereyes]

I'm not okay and I never will be. This life I'm living is too fucked up to be real. I am some character in a dystopian novel. Just another outcast with trauma that only gets worse the more you rise up against the ones holding you down. Well I can't take it anymore.

I feel sick to my stomach

[Tigereyes]

All hope is gone.

[Dawn.]

I'm sick of getting knocked back.

[Dawn.]

I hate doing all these trials.

[Tigereyes]

Only way to spend less is by cutting back on basic necessities. I already minimize spending on necessities. So I guess less food and lower nutrition food is all I can do. I can't cut back on rent. I'm already at a "cheap" apartment. I've already cut back on utilities for the past 5 years. I've cut back on doctors appointments and meds and labs for the past 5 years; I have chronic illnesses. I cook nearly all my meals despite untreated debilitating fatigue. I don't know where else to cut spending. I just don't spend money. I didn't spend much money during college. Why the fuck did I go to college for this life of debt? College wasn't worth it. It got me a shitty pay job that requires me to break my own morals "for the greater good," and I can't afford therapy to work through that aftermath.

[Dawn.]

I'm always tired.

[Tigereyes]

Why must disability discrimination be "legal" in the workplace?

[Tigereyes]

It doesn't get better. It never will. The only thing I can control is if I die by covid or suicide. At least suicide is faster.

[Tigereyes]

Time to go.

[Dawn.]

Why am I not motivated?

[Dawn.]

I just want to be working with animals already.

[Rivière]

I'm so tired. Woke up just before 4 AM and couldn't sleep until after 6 AM. An hour later I got woke up by the neighbours dog constantly barking. By the time I got to sleep I only had a couple extra hours until I had to get up.

[Dawn.]

Why can't this virus just disappear already?

[Dawn.]

Why is she being so childish?

[Dawn.]

I hope this week is better mentally for me.

[Dawn.]

Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

[Dawn.]

She really needs to stop watching and analyzing everything that I say and do.

[Dawn.]

I just want to be somewhere better in my career.

[Tigereyes]

I am disposible to the entire country.

[Dawn.]

I can't believe they went and told him.

[Rivière]

I have a headache.

[Tigereyes]

It's been a long, bad, rough, awful, exhausting day.