Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

I got paid today and got less than I thought I would. Not much less though. I am going to have to check my paystub to see what came out so I can figure out how much will be gone next payday.


If I weren't needing a new car the money would be excellent.

The thought of cooking makes me anxious. It triggers my messed-up eating disorder.

Stuck with the thought that I royally messed up.

[Fanatic]

So depressed about my current situation. Getting help means having money to afford it and I cant afford it. Not having enough food in the house means I feel stressed and fustrated. Alone a lot means I have more time to be depressed all the time. Having credit card bills means having less freedom to spend on things that are way more important on. I feel stuck ugh. :/

I woke up really early and am still tired. I am also super frustrated about something someone said yesterday and I wish I didn't care.

A certain date is coming up and I shouldn't let it affect me so much.

[Fanatic]

What can one do when they have no choice but to wait for help to come to you? What happens when you feel no other option but stay untreated because you cant afford treatment? It is how I feel at the moment and everything just feels hopeless at this point.

Issue with social security that could lead to me having to go sit down there and miss work. I'll have to make sure the missed day is not on a training day so that's fun as all get out. I'll probably know more tomorrow but it might require me having to be assertive and firm...also social security sucks over the phone so that will be fun too. Going to have to wake up early so I can call them in the morning and I still might have to call at lunch.

Why can't the fucking sun be out? I will be so angry if it's pouring down rain. Sun always wakes me up after an all nighter!

Nightmares woke me up. Hope I can get back to sleep but really only have an hour and 45 minutes left to sleep.

Running on fumes. Don't want any more coffee or water. My GI is acting up as it is. Blergh. I just need to walk to wake my darn head up.

Ew. The clingy, thirsty side of me is showing. Fight back the urge to cling to my friend and ask her obnoxious questions.

I seriously need to do the med thing, especially R&T.

I am struggling a lot with feeling guilty. For what? I can't truly say. Other than regretting my behavior the past few months. Regretting that I was upset and took it out in the wrong way. I've come to accept certain things and my behavior will improve. It's just taken longer than it should have and I feel badly about that.

[daisy_jam]

creepy stalker dude number two please kindly fuck off

I'm not feeling great today which is slightly embarrassing.

[Everglow.]

I am British and thus not made for this sort of weather!
30C is too high. Give me the good old English rain again.

Faaalaaaa insomnia. somniphobia. Lovely.

(No, not homophobia, Firefox)
(And while we're on it, I don't mean nomophobia, Google!)

Had to deal with so much stress and anxiety today.


Social security - Having an issue
Work - Got told all the ways I'll be fired
Work- there was an issue that didn't get straightened till lunch


ANXIETY ANXIETY ANXIETY. I feel worthless and I have no friends to talk too.

I got extremely irritated while shopping. The woman in line behind me was standing way to close. It's like she thought it would make me go faster except it was an issue with the cashier...not me? I got close to telling her to back up when I was paying but she had someone with her and I didn't want to make a scene.

[Tigereyes]

I'm sorry I've made it so you feel you can't talk to me about anything important.

The nerves are so bad that I threw up a big wad of spitmire.

That was over fast and I feel like I knew more than I thought. I wish my trainer would sit with me like that. She does at times though.

It's 8 and I am not looking forward to the dark hours of the night. If only I were further north but daylight would be getting shorter much quicker.

Today was rough and I'm feeling like I'm not going to ever be okay.

Had a bad day yesterday and don't want to be here.

She's so close to be done treatment and pneumonia hits.

Have to go look at cars and I'm nervous.

[Tigereyes]

I wish I knew why you invited me to go with you...

[Fanatic]

For the first time Im happy, it gets ruined. Im back to how I was before after a brief sincere of happiness. This rush of heartbreak has triggered my depression back and my suicidal tendencies.

Have to call around about insurance deals. Know I'll get charged a bit more because I have an accident on my record. Next May would probably clear it which means I'll have to pay a bit more for insurance until then.

I hate waking up anxious every morning. Please let this all pass sometime soon.

So tired and a bit nauseated.

[Nala.]

I haven't gotten anything done today.

Stress, stress, stress
AND the pharmacy filled my prescription incorrectly. I had to double check I had been taking them right. It's one pill twice a day not one pill a day. I really hope it doesn't become a huge issue to fix. I can't not have these pills for 15 days.

I'm tired.

[Tigereyes]

I really need a hug

My acid reflux is acting up today.
Getting tired. I don't know (I mean, I do... but, ugh!) why I get so tired at this time.

Want to sleep, but don't want to sleep at the same time.

Exhausted, I have no energy to do the things I need to get done.

[Tigereyes]

Why does caffeine have to make me sick? I need it to overcome the chronic fatigue.. oh well, feeling sick is better than having no energy.