I think I'm a bitch

[Babity]

God...I don't know why ...but lately...I've realized how much of a bitch I can really be......
it's kinda sad actually. I've never thought of myself as mean until yesterday I realized how horrible I am to people sometimes

I keep thinkin about how in grade school I used to always torture this one girl. I used to pretend we were friends and then I'd tell all her secrets to the other girls. I'd send spam to her email. I'd give her number to creepy guys. I would record our conversations and play them back to my friends. And I helped to completely ruin her reputation at her new school..........
God I just feel so crap about it.....but I didn't realize back then how bad it was because everyone was doing it...

and now I keep thinkin about how many times I think bad things about my friends and how I ditch some of them to hang with more popular people. And it's so DUMB. I'm like mad at myself for being so shallow but at the same time I'm so scared of becoming unpopular that I can't like..do anything about it.....

Sorry..........I just had to vent......

Am I the only one?

[moyshi239]

Hey Kaila,
You're not the only one. I can think of a few times when I was really mean when I was little. I think back, and I'm like wow, that was such a mean thing to do, why would I do that? I feel really bad about everything now.

What you can do is learn from it all. You can stop talking behind people's backs, and be friendly and more approachable. Wouldn't it be cool if you were looked up to and respected by others for being the friendliest? There's a girl in my school like that and everyone loves her. Try and drop your old habits, and think things through before you do something and ask yourself if your action is going to hurt someone.
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