Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Ignorance & arrogance. Also possible trigger for Suicide.

[Beautiful_Disaster]

My rant about ignorance & arrogance.

I know the facts about my life, not you, you're some goddamn stranger on the internet who I've never even spoken to.

I know I've tried to kill myself 30+ times since I was 8.

I won't list every single time, every single memory, the dates.
I was there, I did them, my life, that's all I fucking need to know.
I won't prove myself to you.
I won't get the hospital records & prove them to you.
I won't get people to confirm that I attempted that many times in my life.
I don't fucking need or even want to do that.
I'm not wasting my time on someone like you.

I don't care if you say that shit(that's all it is, SHIT)to me.

I do not fucking care.

Why would I lie about trying to kill myself that many times for that long?

I made myself vulnerable & once again, it backfired on me.

I'm going to make myself less vulnerable now on those forums, I can't even be honest & put my experiences to good use without people fucking me about & saying I'm lying & bullshitting.

Just tell me, why would I do that?

I already feel like a failure, I feel like a failure more so because of how many times I've attempted, & failed, & for how long I've tried, & even lethally tried, & goddamn failed.

Just fucking tell me why I'd want to admit that & furthermore, make myself feel & look like more of a failure.


I never lie,
I never bullshit,
I don't say things that aren't true.
My OCD makes sure of that.

I know it may sound bizarre that I've tried so many times & failed, but there it is, that's the truth,
believe it or not, whatever,
I know what happened,
I know the truth,
I know the facts,
I know,
not you,
you are just some fucking stranger,
an ignorant & arrogant one at that.

Also applies to everyone else who doesn't believe something about my life & doubts anything about me & thinks I'm lying or bullshitting or whatever.

I'm outta here.

P.S.
I also know I've just wasted my time ranting about him, but I'm pissed & need to get this outta my head/off my chest.

[CanadaCraig]

Hi Aimee!!

I know something too.

Without question - without any doubt in my mind.

I am absolutely positive that I have NEVER denied your truth.

I have NEVER said - or even suggested - that what YOU have said is 'all shit'.

I have NEVER accused you of being a liar, a bullshitter OR whatever.

I think it's an awful thing to deny someone else's reality.

And for that reason alone - I would NEVER have dismissed what you have ever said.

I would NEVER have assumed that your FACTS are a FANTASY.

That all said...

There is one thing that I DO know.

I know that no matter who you are in this world - no matter what you have gone through - no matter what you think and what you feel - there will ALWAYS be SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE who will take it upon themselves to tell you that you are wrong. OR accuse you of being a LIAR. That's just LIFE. And the fact that some people have denied your reality doesn't make you special or unique. It happens to everyone.

Are you going to allow those annoying little 'someones' to have THAT much power in your life? Are YOU going to let THEM control YOU and what YOU DO?!

Take a few steps back. SEE the bigger picture.

My name is CRAIG. I know my name is Craig. Do I need you to agree with ME to make that a reality? NO - I don't. But what if you tell ME that my name is NOT Craig? What do I do then? Do I get all flustered and angry? NO. I just say to myself, "OK - well - I can't do anything about that! Good-bye to YOU. Hello to someone NEW!!"

Whether you stay at TH - or leave. That's up to you.

I - for one - think you should stay.

GREAT BIG HUG
Craig!!

[Beautiful_Disaster]

It isn't about anyone here.
A name isn't something you'd typically get angry about if people don't believe it is your name though.
The fact that I've tried to kill myself so many times since so long ago is something that is close to my heart, and I'm extremely sensitive and scared to reveal about myself.
I made myself vulnerable, and it backfired.
I've been hurt a lot because of things like this and it does upset and anger me.
I'm allowed to express that.
I cannot control my feelings.

Comparing this, to a name, is like comparing an apple to an orange.

I'm not letting them "control" me either, I'm merely expressing how I feel about this and getting it off my chest because it has upset and angered me.
I thought this was the place to do that.