bottled out

[BabyIndia]

I'm sick of bottling everything up, so here goes.

In 2007 I met a girl who I belived was a real freind.
We found out we went to the same college, and thought it would be cool to meet in person. Before long I started to trust this friend. Even introduced the friend to my partner. You opened up to me about cutting yourself, I felt sorry for you, you said that you were getting picked on by a girl in your class at college.

I told you that I'd miscarried and that I'd left my partner for a bit until I got my head round everything. You started messaging him, you were there for him when I couldn't be, he mistakenly thought this was love. When it wasn't.

Me and him got back together, and after a few months went through a rough patch and broke up for a bit. You jumped in my grave so to speak. He then dumped you because he realised what he'd done and wanted to be with me, you said you understood this, and you were fine with it all.

Two days later I get emails saying I stole him off you and you were planning on killing yourself, I'd gotton used to seeing blogs written by you saying you were going to kill your self.
I messaged you back and told you to come online at a certain time and I'd speak with you.

You come online and kept disapearing you said sorry, I can't deal with this anymore, I've taken to many pills and I've cut myself. I asked if you'd like me to come over, you said no i'll be okay. I told you I wanted to see you the next time you were in college, you said okay I'll text you when I'm in.

The next morning I got a text, you said I'm intoday meet up at lunch. I was fairly suprised that you were coming in after taking so many pills and cutting your arm. I agreed to see you. Lunch time came and you came bounding over wearing a short selved shirt, i thought you were brave walking around with a cut on your arm. You'd told me it was big and deep.
You started to get nearer and eventually I could see there wasn't a mark on your arm. I didn't say nothing, apart from I have to go sorry.

I ran off and thought to myself what on earth is she lying for? and why?

I didn't know what to belive anymore. The rape the abuse was it true..
I soon found out, you'd started bragging about it to people. I got so mad at you one night I told you to hurry up and kill yourself, because I knew deep down you wouldn't do it, It was harsh but i wasn't bothered.

You had no need to lie over things like that, when it hadn't happend to you.

You then told me one day you werent feeling well and you didnt want to go to the docs, i suggested looking up your symptoms on nhs direct. You came back saying you had cancer, i told you that you'd prob read it wrong. A few days later you twisted that, you said it was me, when in truth it was you.

You then got with my boyfriend behind my back, yes I know he's at fault to, but you were ment to be my freind. You turned him agaisnt me and warped him into your fucked up life.

He then dumped you he got sick of you lying.

I got blamed for that when I just couldnt be bothered with either of you anymore and i was moving on.

I've moved on now, I just wish you could, you got a new boyfriend and everything seems to be going okay, but you still insist on lying, and twisting everything, so much so you turned my recent ex agaisnt me.

I'm not the lair in this, everything i've told you that has happened in my life, has happend.

You don't need to lie to make freinds.

I'm over you,
I can't trust anyone now because of you.

So thanks a bunch love.

Rant over.

[TheLittleNinja]

Hey, I know you probably dont expect a comment or anything... but... I'm sorry you went through all this with these people, I know a complusive liar - I know how you feel. I thought they were my friend too Your not alone, and you've done great moving on with your life

Keeping holding strong

[BabyIndia]

I just wish she'd see it herself with her own eyes, what she's doing to people

[BabyIndia]

The fact now she's trying to wreck my life is reall pissing me off.