Triggering (SH): Falling apart.

[Haylee.]

1. today I saw my best friend Mary Ann, which is alwayssss a good thing. But i realized that she's leaving at the end of January for 3 months to go to Italyyyy. *sigh* i'm happy for her but it'll be sooo hard. and at some point she's moving away from here. She's my only really close friend. I trust her. not really anyone else.

2. I cut myself today. I promised i wouldn't. But i read something that made it seem like it would be fine to. like it's no big deal. that's how i feel. :\

3.My whole body is sore. idk why.

4. Lots of family problems. Mom and sis being immature and not solving their stupid problem. it pisses me off.

5. I want to give up. Where did all my hope go?!?! last week i was doing so good. I was depressed, but i had hope. and i wasn't cutting. here we go again.


Haylee Elaine

[Stargazed.]

Aw, Haylee. I'm sorry things aren't going so great for you right now. Let me ask you this, what made you have hope last week? Try doing it all over again! Just because you have a slip-up doesn't mean you have to go back into that cycle all over again. It takes time to completely heal from the urges of SH but you can do it! You're strong and you're not alone. Feel free to PM me anytime. Take care of yourself. <3