Triggering: No!!

[Michaela *heartbroken*]

I am really down at the moment as I have had to move away from my Fiance, I haven't moved far and we can see each other most days but I miss lying next to him every night. I can't explain the details of why I have had to move. I am actually terrified to sleep alone as I suffer from really bad nightmares and for the past 2 month he had been there to wake me up and now he won't be. I don't want to go to sleep without him being there to help me snap out of them. I am completely terrified and I just wish I didn't have to move out the way I did. I am so confused and tired, I dare not even close my eyes in case I do fall asleep. The nightmares are getting worse and worse and sometimes the nightmares can be about him, which makes me feel even worse because I think it may come true. He keeps saying it won't but I am just so scared. I have tried going to sleep but can't, I am too scared without him here. I really don't know what to do. There are no cure for my nightmares and I have tried tablets and none of them work, sometimes I feel like I am a freak because of this as not many adults suffer from night terrors, most children grow out of it before they are adults. I can't talk to my parents about my dreams as they won't understand, the ony person I can talk to is my Fiance, he understands and he feels guilty for not being able to be there to wake me up. I lash out in my sleep and always end up hurting myself off something. I didn't want to move out but I had no choice and he felt guilty about that too and I don't want him to feel guilty over it. I am worried about him, he said he wants to be there for me but he said he feels useless because he can't be here on a night for him. I have told him not to worry about it, and that hopefully I should be fine. But he doesn't believe that I will be with the way I used to suffer from the nightmares when I was lying next to him. I really am frightened, and what makes it worse is that most of the nightmares that I have, I can't remember them when I wake up, so sometimes I am confused at what I am actually afraid of and other times I wish I couldn't remember some of the dreams I keep having as they tear me to pieces. Somehow I feel like I am just going to fall to pieces over it all and especially being apart away from him on a night.

[moyshi239]

Hi Michaela,
I'm really sorry that you're going through this tough time right now. I can only imagine how frightening it would be to have constant nightmares. Have you ever talked to your doctor about them? They may be able to offer you different options that may help.

It must be hard to be away from your fiance, especially now. But it seems to me like you've found a good guy. He's willing to be there for you and wants to help you get through this. It's always nice to know you have someone who can support you through the hard times.

I hope things get better for you soon.
Take care. :]