What did I do?!

[Jubilation]

What did I do to deserve this?

So, little rant of complaining about all the bad things that have been happening in the past month: I have been left out of all the events/activities/fun things that my "friends" have been up to. If people are supposed to partner up, suddenly they all have each other and I'm on the outside looking in.

I was upset during my science class today, and one of my two "best friends" was looking at me for a long time. I thought she was going to give me a hug or ask me if I was alright, but instead she told me I looked high and began to laugh.

The other day, I went to school with next to no make up on because I hadn't woken up early enough, and the first thing one of my "friends" told me was that I look baked. Yup, great self esteem booster.

Today, I was texting one of my two "best friends" and told her that I wasn't going to be at school tomorrow. It got into a small argument somehow and I ended up apologizing (though it was not my fault) and saying I was dealing with a lot and I didn't mean to take it out on her. She asked me what I was dealing with and I told her I had family issues and I've been struggling with depression for a while. Note that that's the first time I've EVER told her about my depression. She said "oh I see." So I replied with a little hint of "Yeah, I just really need somebody to be there for me right now." Her answer? "Ya."

I'm like ripping my hair out (not literally) from feeling so unwanted. I want true friends, not those fake ones that use me to help them with their homework. AGH.

So yeah, thanks for reading. If you've had anything similar to you, please say so and tell me how you dealed with this because I'm more miserable every day.

[EndangeredHeartsx3]

To be honest, friends are supposed to be there for you through the thick and thin; especially if they truly are your "best friends".

Truly, they don't seem like your friends at all. Have they ever done this before? Do you have any other friends that you can go to and talk with? Or have you tried discussing with your friends how they are making you feel?

I've had my fair share of friends leaving me, ignoring me, ditching me and just not caring when it comes to my problems that I would like to discuss. Hence why they are no longer a part of my life.

I think you should take some time to consider whether these "friends" are best to keep around or start to distance yourself a little. Maybe find a new group of friends or put yourself out there in social events to meet new people.

This was a little rushed but I wanted to throw my input in and help you out a little. Please feel free to PM me anytime you would like to talk and I'll get back to you as soon as possible(:

[Jubilation]

Thank you! I've made a lot of new friends since I began high school, which makes me happy, but these two were supposed to be the "best friends" that I was supposed to have. One of the "best friends" is still really nice, and usually inclusive and I enjoy her company, but it's the other that's been doing all the hurtful things.

During the summer, we had gotten so close. Literally we were at each other's house every single day of the entire summer, we were like the closest sisters and we did everything together, and knew everything about each other. Now, she's changed and is so hypocritical and plain rude.

She'll make a joke about me, like when I'm in a group of people, and find it hilarious. But if anybody dares make a joke about her, she gets aggressive and kind of violent. She just doesn't see that she's not the friend she used to be, and that what she says does hurt.

I have my boyfriend to talk to, but he doesn't go to my school. So that kind of rules out being with him at lunch. Ugh, that's another thing (sorry for ranting again) if I tell one of them to meet me someplace during lunch, they'll say they will and then usually they don't show up. The one "best friend" that I've been telling you about, if I do that she'll say "maybe" and then not show up, or if I ask for her to be my partner, say, during our next science lab she'll say "possibly." The way she says it is ridden with "only if nobody better asks me first."

It drives me crazy. Thank you so much for your reply, it was helpful!