just FUCK OFF and get a JOB

[BDF]

I am SICK of these assholes "patrolling" the nieghbourhood with their fat diabetic asses or skinny asses looking to start fights with ANYONE they fucking possibly can. I'm FUCKING sick of them.

It takes an UNBELIEVABLE amount of self restraint on my part not to completely slam the shit out of them when they approach me sometimes, get up all close with their fucking manboobs giving my a hard stare at the hairdressers or as I'm leaving the shop.

I've dealt with these sorts of JERKBAGS all my damn life. I've had a bad day. It's probably why it's got to me today. I just so badly had the fucking urge to... nvrfuckingmind. I'd get banned if I said it.

I just sometimes wish I could just let myself go and show them what the fuck I can do. PErhaps they'd learn... but that would only apply to someone who has ANY intelligence AT ALL.

How STUPID do people have to be??? WTF are they tryin' to prove??? Damn fools. Damn fucking RETARDS. WHat the fuck are they even fighting FOR??

One of them did their whole fucking "hardass" routine, of staring me out. I ignore that shit and don't usually give a damn, but I keep an eye open on them in case they start swinging. Occasionally they try to shoulder barge you, and position themselves in the doorway to do that. The worst part is that I know I could very likely lay out 9/10 of them with one calculated and accurate punch in the face or chop to the throat. But once I snap I go excessive. I don't trust myself to stop when I should. I see no dignity and even feel shame afterwards in beating someone up who's already down on the floor.

I feel like going back there approx. 11pm (its 6 now), because I know they'l be hanging around and will probably be looking to start shit. Plus they'd probably be drunk and swinging like autistic apes. Right now all I feel I need is an excuse to beat the shit out of one of them in the pretence that it was in self defence. It'l pass though. 5 hours is enough for me to calm it. 10 minutes have gone by since me writing this and I feel less pissed off already.

I guess I'm genuinely scared that one day I'd snap like I used to in school sometimes. Except I'm not 14-16 years old anymore. Back then I could already punch a metal locker door in. It's the kind of stupid shit an immature 15 year old would do, don't judge me for it. Fuck knows what could actually happen now if I lost it. I'd probably end up in prison.

[BDF]

It's that feeling where I feel like I'm losing control of myself... I hate it. Makes me even more angry when it happens.