Tired of my Christian family

[XxMallyPrydexX]

*Sigh*... I'm just struggling to get along...

The only people that know of me being a Buddhist are my boyfriend and my counselor, and since then my counselor, being as awesome as she is, has been lending me meditation cd's as well as Buddhist devotional books. My parents don't know about these, they think that they're just books that'll help me with my depression.

Lately, I've had conflicts with my Christian friends, my dad, and my mom. Everything they say and do about it just bugs me! I don't want to have to believe this, but I don't want to tell them that I believe otherwise. I can't tell them that. The other day, my mother and I were riding home from my bible study and she asked me to promise her that I would pray for my dad. Pray that he would see what he has been doing wrong and that his new counselor will help him and that our relationship with him can begin to mend. I didn't know what else to do but promise her I would, and I did, to some extent. I got down on my knees and did the whole "Dear God," thing, but it just wasn't right. I wasn't talking to God, and even if I was, I clearly didn't do it intentionally. I want nothing to do with anyone who decides that one can live forever and that another who chooses not to follow him will be sentenced to unimaginable torture for all eternity. But that's another story.

Furthermore, I'm starting to lose it in youth group. I'm a debater. As a Buddhist, I have learned accept that as a fact. But when I start rebounding the beliefs of my friends with examples like Crusades, I get some hurt feelings and some suspicion on who I am really loyal to...

Ohhh I don't know what to do anymore someone please help...

[ReluctantPegasister]

Is there a specific reason you're not telling them your true beliefs? Are you afraid you will be prosecuted at your house and/or at school if you told someone instead of being unable to talk about it?

[XxMallyPrydexX]

Maeveee <3 you're everywhere today

I know I would be prosecuted... not only that, I would be kicked out. No doubt about that one. And I'm not about to leave my friends and my boyfriend behind. Not to mention if some of my Christian friends find out, while they are good friends, they put their belief first. And they believe it ungodly to be friends with non-believers. (which makes no sense... jesus made friends of tax collecters and adulturers...)

[chickenonsteroids]

You don't need to follow their beliefs, It's you that makes your spiritual decisions not your parents.

Plus if you debate, why should your feelings get hurt?

[XxMallyPrydexX]

I get some hurt feelings and some suspicion on who I am really loyal to...

I was referring to my youth group there... not me sorry. It's happened before, I say something accidentally and someone's gotta get bent out of shape for it and then I feel horrible and everyone else is mad at me :/

[Miss Adventure]

There is no need to feel bad about debating especially with examples like the Crusades. That's usually common knowledge and they should already be aware of what has happened in the name of god. If they get their feelings hurt over that, then they must be very ignorant of the history of their religion.

Anyway, I know where you're coming from. I'm not Christian, I guess you could say I was a very spiritual person rather than religious. If my parents found out, then my father would surely disown me. They don't have to know what you believe. A person's beliefs should be between them and what ever it is that they believe.

[RadkeLover]

i was christian, my parents forced it down my throat, but then i just stopped going, stating that it was "boring" but really i was disgusted with what they were preaching about homosexuality and the like, so you don't have to tell them, but maybe they will understand, in the bible it says something about "hate the sin, love the sinner" or something like that

[XxMallyPrydexX]

i was christian, my parents forced it down my throat, but then i just stopped going, stating that it was "boring" but really i was disgusted with what they were preaching about homosexuality and the like, so you don't have to tell them, but maybe they will understand, in the bible it says something about "hate the sin, love the sinner" or something like that

Thank you this is exactly what's been happening to me. I would say the people were hypocrites or that the services were boring but I really just don't agree with the whole ideals of Christianity Perhaps one day I'll tell them, and hope that they will understand, but not until I'm old enough to get away if they don't.