Hey TeenHelp.

[Kristen♡]

When I first joined, I don't think my arrival thread was all that. So, I typed up something for my about me, and thought maybe, just maybe, I could post a new arrival thread. So here's the new and improved version.
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My name is Kristen. I was born on the day Superman was introduced to the world. I was a city baby. It all started in Chicago, Illinois. I was born into an already broken family, never really in one piece to begin with. My mother already had a son, my half-brother, ten years before. My mother and father divorced when I was around the age of three. After that, my brother was sent to live with his dad, and I was sent to live with my grandparents, in hot, sticky Florida. After the day I left, I never saw my father again. Rarely heard from him, to be honest. I grew up in a small city in Florida, I've lived here ever since. My mom moved to Florida a few years after I did. My brother stayed with his dad, visiting about every year. We've always been close. Always will be. My mom remarried, started drinking, smoking, and neglected to visit, despite the fact that she lived maybe.. 5 minutes away. However, when she did visit, she was harsh, abusive(both physically and verbally). I always loved her. I still do. Drugs and alcohol can do bad things to you. That's one thing I've never struggled to understand. My step-dad was already a drunk, and he was very rude. I mean, I don't think he tried to be, but he was. I still don't like him. Anyway, after my brother graduated high school, he moved to Florida with his girlfriend(at the time), Marie. It was great, probably one of the happiest times in my life. They lived with my grandparents and me for quite some time. After a while, they saved up enough money to rent a place nearby, where I visited often and spent time with them. Marie was like my sister, and I'm still in contact with her. However, they moved to South Carolina with another couple, Stephanie and Justin, and broke up not long after. Marie ended up dating Justin and Mark with Steph. I hated Steph at first. I tried everything to get Mark to leave her. I wanted Marie. She was the only person I ever wanted Mark to date. They were engaged. It was heartbreaking. But, I got over it, and Steph really wanted to be close to me. Their relationship didn't last long, and Mark ended up back in Chicago. Then, on March 10th, 2009, I was told my father died the previous day. I didn't know him well. My whole life I wanted nothing more than to have a normal family, which I knew I'd never get, and then it was impossible. I'd never been so depressed. This is when I began my self harm. It became worse a few weeks later when four friends of mine died in a car crash, only one out of five survived. I didn't know what to do after that. My life was a wreck. I was in my worst state of mind. But then I met James. Oh, James. He was so great. We didn't know each other for that long when we started dating, but we knew each other well. We spent so much time talking. He was my safety and on April 28, we began dating. Everything was great. I thought he was the one. I thought I was in love. Then he became controlling, and soon he was verbally abusive. I was depressed again. He criticized what I wore, how I talked, who I spoke with, everything. It wasn't good enough if it wasn't what he wanted. I put up with it for many months. I tried to be a good girlfriend. Then I ended it in January of this year. I had a hard time finding myself. I wasn't used to not being cooped up in the house all the time talking to him. Then the big move was announced. We're moving back to Illinois. Back to cold. Back to family. Back where I have no friends, almost as if I was still with James. My brother was, and still is, dating a very nice girl named Melissa, and I love her a lot, like I did Marie. I hope we keep her close this time, because she means very much and has impacted me in ways I can't explain. She's already family. My mom still lives nearby, and she quit drinking and smoking. I can't say she did it because she wanted to, but I'd like to think so. Basically she was told by a doctor that she would die if she didn't practice a healthier lifestyle. She's a better mother now, a very good one at that. She tries very hard, and I appreciate everything she's done, even with our past problems. I forgave her, like she deserves. Everyone makes mistakes and she fixed every one of hers. So thank you mom. I know you won't see this, but thank you for being here when dad wasn't. Thank you for fixing our relationship. Thank you for finally being a mother.

Now... three months later, I'm in school most of my time and when I'm not, I'm with my friends. I'm lucky I still have them. I don't deserve them. I ditched them for someone I'll never see or speak to again. Someone who doesn't matter. I'm leaving them again, and this time I don't think I'll be coming back. It's a sad thing, really, and I'll probably end up alone most of my time. But that's what I'm here for.

So this is my story. I'm not asking for sympathy, I'm not really asking for anything. But for me to help you, and for you to help me, there needs to be a knowledge of my background. So this is where I come from. This is me.

[.TJ.]

Welcome to TH! (:

[Kristen♡]

Shush, boozeh :P

[.TJ.]

I am good Boozeh! And hungry!

[Imagine]

Welcome my fellow buddy
Questions? Well i think you could just maybe answer them yourself.

[annabanana.]

Hey Kristen,

Kind of welcome even though you've been here a while! Well done for posting your "story", it takes a lot. I admire you for that! You've been through a lot and if you ever need me for anything feel free to PM me.

Take care.
Anna

[Whisperer]

That's amazing Kristin.
You've come so far throughout your entire life and you should be proud of that.
Congratulations to your mother for giving up those unhealthy ways of life.
We don't talk much, but I hope we can start to.
I'm always here if you need anything, but you know that.

Alessa

[.Brittany.]

Welcome! xD

[MegaMadness]

Welcome! I would be happy to answer any questions you have but I think you can answer them yourself. Haha!

[honeycake]

Hey Kristen, i'm Jodie and welcome to TH there are stickys on each forum that will help you understand Teenhelp more and gives great advice. I also suggest you visit the chat room where you can meet new people. Everyone here is very friendly if you have any questions or need advice don't hesitate to pm me have fun and see you around.