Triggering: June 23 poem 2

[Not_here]

So how do you understand it?
If I yell and stomp my feet
You only escalate the heat
a personal attack,
pointing out everything I lack,
all my shortcomings and deficiencies.
But the funny thing is, and I say this while laughing
When my voice is calm and warm
When I'm gentle and mean no harm
When I bite my tongue and hold myself
you loosen yours and drive me insane
Behind this raging monster is a little girl in pain
Do you enjoy watching me go mad?
Do you find it entertaining?
for someone like you, I'm not surprised
You've got nothing to lose, nothing to hide
You'd say it straight out, as if nothing is wrong
as if you're punishing me for being part of this family
and living in this home.

[Ennui.]

I like how you started this with a question.

[Not_here]

thank you Dez <3