there's a girl - a poem

[Jess~]

there’s a girl
in the window
of a big square room.

daydreaming
silently scheming
the thought of reaching her doom.

nobody knows it
nobody hears her
silent screaming cries of a terrible plea.

nobody cares to
open their hearts
and see the tears that the eyes can’t see.


there’s a girl
in the corner
of a dark shadowed hall.

wondering
silently pondering
if she’ll ever live again at all.

people have seen
her laughing at ease
and think that she’s doing just great.

but she sees the mirror
she hears the screams
she feels her reflection’s painful hate.


there’s a girl
in the middle
of a cardboard box.

wishing
that someone
would ask why she never talks.

maybe they would
but they don’t know how
to love someone who doesn’t love herself.

maybe she could
if they didn’t tell her
she’s just another unread book on the shelf.


there’s a girl
hiding herself
in the jail cell of her soul.

how many times
will she feel
so numbly alone and cold.

i wish i
could let her know
she’s beautiful in her flaws.

but she’s so deeply
locked up behind
the broken home she calls her walls.

* * *

(these walls have no door,
nor a simple, locked gate.
even if i had the key,
i’m afraid it’s too late.)




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this was actually written about my best friend.
she's distanced herself from all our old friends and even me to the point where we truly feel we don't even know her anymore.
they've all given up on her at this point, but i love her too much to do that.

she has made my life worth living and saved me a COUNTLESS number of times. i just can't let her go.


but she's so closed off to everyone that there's no way i can possibly help her with whatever she's going through.
i don't even know if she cares about me anymore.

Hey!

This is so touching, I can definitely relate to this! Awesome writing, again! I'm so sorry your friend feels this way. Have you tried doing things for her just to show her how much she means to you? Maybe she feels like nobody cares about her. Maybe she just wants to feel loved and cared about, for once. Maybe she thinks that nobody understands her and she's completely alone. I wish she was on TeenHelp too, it sounds like she really needs help and someone to reach out to. It isn't healthy to keep it all bottled up. Have you offered to always be there for her?


By the way, it's great that you haven't given up on her though everybody else has! That's very nice of you!


See you around!
Love. - xx

[hocus pocus]

This is nicely done. It's powerful and emotional, and I like what you wrote at the end.

[Dawn.]

This is really good!

It is powerful and there are those that can relate to it.

[Ennui.]

I love your writing style!

[Jess~]

thank you all so much for the great feedback.

Originally Posted by Loveyalots.

I'm so sorry your friend feels this way. Have you tried doing things for her just to show her how much she means to you? Maybe she feels like nobody cares about her. Maybe she just wants to feel loved and cared about, for once. Maybe she thinks that nobody understands her and she's completely alone. I wish she was on TeenHelp too, it sounds like she really needs help and someone to reach out to. It isn't healthy to keep it all bottled up. Have you offered to always be there for her?
By the way, it's great that you haven't given up on her though everybody else has! That's very nice of you!

i've tried everything, and our friends have tried a lot. actually, one of our mutual friends hasn't given up entirely on her. she leaves notes in her locker with uplifting and inspiring quotes and messages.
but my best friend kind of just takes them as a joke. she's usually just like, okay... whatever." and sighs.

i've told her how much she means to me, and how she's my number one friend, she has no competition for anyone replacing her in that spot in my heart.
i went into some long speech about how whenever i plan something, she's the first person i think about inviting, and that i'll plan things around her schedule so that she can for sure be there. i told her that she really is my best friend and that no one else understands me and clicks with me the way she does.
but she just dodges me opening up to her by name-calling and making a joke out of it. (for example, after this particular speech she called me a "traitor", because i told one of my other friends - who i only met that year, and i had known her for three years - something personal before i told her it.

but she's written some sad stuff on her deviantART, and hasn't answered anyone's questions about it.

i'm starting to wonder if she's bipolar or something, because being friends with her is so confusing and draining honestly. there have been times that i've freaked out and been worried and mad because she was avoiding me, but then being all friendly with her other friends (who don't actually care about her).
but then later that same day, she talked to me like we were best friends again.